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@cutiee27 you and your first love are both fiercely individualistic and inquisitive individuals, and this can be a supportive and fulfilling relationship. The relationship’s focus is likely to be mentally oriented, about invention and challenge, particularly in mental activities - games, puzzles, discussions and debates, the striving for academic excellence etc. Unfortunately, this relationship can subordinate feeling to thought, to the point where those involved risk blunting impulses and suppressing feelings. Yet the communication level can be high - in fact, the two of you can have an almost telepathic link with each other.
Your relationships Cutiee27 too often bring out your emotional side, so that your brain power is neglected; your matchup with your first love, however, will have put your intelligence to the test. The relationship particularly emphasizes swift responses - to avoid superficiality, the two of you would have needed to remind yourselves to give issues deeper consideration. Mutually critical attitudes are likely to cause argument but also to sharpen wits here. The two of you as a team would have made formidable opponents for anyone who challenged you in the mental sphere. In this relationship, an emphasis on mind power does not necessarily lessen sensual pleasures, and your love affair likely included a robust physicality. Of course you would have also wanted to talk about this side of your lives. Your keen interest in hedonistic pursuits would have heightened your pleasure as long as your approach did not get too intellectual. Intelligent investigation, including reading, attending workshops and counseling, can have a positive effect on this match. Should the two of you have been tempted to move on to marriage or to a permanent living situation, you should have taken care not to rush in impulsively as you would have ended up regretting it. Your first love can get a little preoccupied with his own life at times too and you may end up neglected. He can become insensitive to other people's needs, being so wrapped up in his work or other interests that any kind of interruption or setback can lead to outbursts of anger; thus he can come across as aggressive, neglectful or in an extreme case, selfish. So whereas you two would have worked well together in business, a love match here can hold many problems and difficulties.
In your younger days, Cutiee27, you may have been painfully shy but, after the age of twenty-three, you should have gained a much-needed boost of strength and confidence. Being witty, friendly and charming, you shouldn’t have problems attracting a partner, but anyone who wants to share their life with you may have to be content with playing a supporting role. Finding someone who can share your stimulating intellectual interests and sense of fun is likely to create the ideal relationship. You must still however work on building up your self-esteem and self-trust. Though you may often prefer a bit of privacy to company, you do feel the need to bond with other people. At the beginning of a relationship, you may come across as reserved and uncertain, but when you finally do open up, you can surprise both yourself and your partner with the strength of your passion and emotional confidence. In actuality, you may be looking for substitute parents to pay attention to you and take care of you, since you may feel unsure about taking care of yourself. In fact, due to perceived past betrayals, you may associate the heart and feelings with pain and hurt, and prefer to think rather than feel. But you need a partner who will encourage you to express your emotions. To the degree that you subconsciously expect betrayal, you will encounter it in other people and in the world. Due to a lack of self-trust, you may seek knowledge and wisdom outside of yourself rather than trusting your intuitive depths. So it's vital for you to develop a strong sense of trust - in yourself, other people, and God/the Universe. You have to stop hiding inside your mind's defenses and learn to trust your own feelings and instincts, even if those feelings sometimes involve pain. Once you open enough to express your feelings and needs and learn to trust your partner, however, your relationships will flourish.
2019 for you was a new beginning, a whole new chapter of your life. It was all about you and your goals. 2020 on the other hand will focus very much on relationships, all kinds of relationships. Anything to do with diplomacy, dealing with people, networking, communication, human relations, and cooperating/working with others will be lucky for you. Any new ideas, relationships, or projects that were begun in 2019 should either start to gel or it should become clear, through lack of energetic support from the universe, that you will need to release some emotional and mental blocks that stand in your way. It is possible that issues in an existing relationship will come to the surface to be dealt with. Follow your inner voice in matters of the heart. This is a year to focus on your emotions and love. Last year was all about your work/study - it was a “me” year; this year is an “us” year. This can be a slow-moving year, designed to test and build your patience. It’ll feel like you’re moving three steps forward, four steps backward at any given time. Concentrate on intimacy and relationships, fostering appreciation for yourself and your loved ones, and speaking your truth gently yet firmly. Don’t expect anything to transpire at a rapid pace. You'll need patience, patience, and more patience. Your personal energy will be focused on “us,” relationship, and harmony. Yet the energy of the year will demand dynamic action and a bit of self-centered achievement. It’ll be a delicate balance for you in 2020. It will pay off to circulate and impress people with your talents and abilities this year and to be balanced, sociable and intuitive. It is a time to cooperate and form new partnerships with others, to have patience, lay your plans, and bide your time (for success is sure to come if you are willing to prepare and plan well), but not necessarily to take on any big projects that may overwhelm you with details. In 2020, you are well advised to rest, reflect, and gather knowledge. Part of that process may be taking a well-deserved vacation or taking classes that are of personal interest to you without being overly demanding. 2021 will be your big year for fun and socialising, so you will need lots of energy and focus to get through it.
2020 will be asking you to find ways of creating more harmony, stability and balance in all areas of your life. Indeed, you are searching for ways to make life easier for yourself, for example by letting go of a specific type of emotional behaviour which is preventing you from enjoying life fully, or perhaps by moving to a property closer to your job instead of commuting for hours every working day. In order to bring more balance into your life, you may need to look at situations carefully, weigh up which need to be changed, and then be prepared to do something about them. In 2020, you may also find yourself in situations that are the very opposite of what you had expected, but in order for you to find your ideal balance, it may be necessary for you to experience them. This cycle can be a time for major decision-making, but before doing so you are likely to consult your partner or best friend and talk it through thoroughly, and you will also pay attention to your intuition. If you started a new job, moved house or took on new commitments during the last year, by now you are beginning to find your way, and hopefully you are feeling more at ease with these changes. There may be a feeling that you want to backtrack on decisions made last year, but more often than not, these are based upon emotional fears which need to be kept in check in order to make steady progress. Indeed, any fluctuations in finances or emotions may be a part of the process that encourages you to work harder towards a balanced life this year. During 2020, you may find yourself hopelessly in love and experiencing undying romance; it is time for a blending of souls. Perhaps you may also seek out a special friend to share your hobbies and interests with, or merge your company with a new business partner. You will often find that you are attracted to acting as a couple. Whether you are living or working with another, you may find that other people distinctly fade into the background as you fully explore the relationship dynamic this year. Wanting someone to hold your hand so that you do not experience life alone may be a problem for you, along with relying on them for emotional support. However, you may discover that by learning to give to others, you feel connected to life, which opens up your heart a little further and makes you attractive to love. Negotiations of any kind may spring up and dominate your life during this cycle, but you may be required to work at compromises. You can even find yourself mediating on behalf of others, over which you will usually be calm and diplomatic, even if your emotions do try to get in the way. You can also find yourself defusing uncomfortable situations easily because you are able to keep your emotions in check, and because you do not take sides in an argument. If you expect this year to be on accelerated over-drive (like the last three years!), you’ll be in for a rude awakening. You’ll be best served when you slow it down to a reasonable pace and focus on feeling. The more giving and patient you are, the more benefits you’ll receive.
Benefits of the year:
You’ll feel empowered as the “go to” person in your professional and personal interactions.
You’ll feel a sense of loving, harmonious energy enveloping you.
You’ll enjoy and have success working with the details in your life.
Potential Challenges of the year:
Be aware that if you struggle with the destructive aspects of the 2 Personal Year, you’ll be faced with issues such as the need to learn and practice tact, to act with sensitivity to others’ feelings and to work out issues related to codependency.
Protect yourself from basing your actions on what other people think of you by reminding yourself that you can’t control other people, you can only control yourself.
Be prepared to default into an over-generous mode and then withdraw from the situation where you’ve given with resentment. Get to know your triggers. Learn to recognize when they are presented to you and how to step back and think through your response rather than responding with a “black or white” answer.
The Question you must ask yourself: “How do I want to love and be loved in return?” This is a year devoted to love in all its forms. It’s a fabulous time for networking, finding “the one,” or reestablishing your connection with your intimate relationship.
