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@sara007 you will not find love or marriage until you gain more trust. It can take you some time to open up and trust yourself or love or the process of your life. You have a sensitive, private disposition and must overcome deeply rooted insecurity. A sense of trust will become the touchstone of your life, however. You will learn some useful lessons about the human foibles of spiritual teachers and the importance of trusting your own ‘inner guide’. When you recognize that you helped create the drama of past betrayals, you will learn to appreciate the roles played by others for your long-range evolution, whether intentional or not. You may not feel grateful to those who broke your trust, but you can be grateful to a larger Spirit for your new awareness as a result of your experience. As you recognize the power of your hidden expectations, you will change your assumptions and, in doing so, change your life.
Though you may often prefer a bit of privacy to company, you do feel the need to bond with other people. At the beginning of a relationship, you may come across as reserved and uncertain, but when you finally do open up, you can surprise both yourself and your partner with the strength of your passion and emotional confidence. In actuality, you may be looking for substitute parents to pay attention to you and take care of you, since you may feel unsure about taking care of yourself. In fact, due to perceived past betrayals, you may associate the heart and feelings with pain and hurt, and prefer to think rather than feel. To the degree that you subconsciously expect betrayal, you will encounter it in other people and in the world. Due to a lack of self-trust, you may seek knowledge and wisdom outside of yourself rather than trusting your intuitive depths. So it's vital for you to develop a strong sense of trust - in yourself, other people, and God/the Universe. You have to stop hiding inside your mind's defences and learn to trust your own feelings and instincts, even if those feelings sometimes involve pain. Once you open enough to express your feelings and needs and learn to trust your partner and other people, however, your relationships will flourish.