@witchylady: Actually I'm doing things in real life, I have a job, I sport. He told me clearly about the virgin stuff that. If I'm with him I needed to make a commitment. Like some scorpios do it very easily with boys, I mean people in my near surroundings. I was insecure of losing it to someone. But at the same time if I said to him that "you know what I'm still that age, I want to wait like 4 more years or so" I don't know what would happen maybe I was just alone. Because its really hard for me to connect with someone at that lvl. Maybe we haven't matured or respected eachother, and we had our bad times. I tell him everything, my secrets, my doubts. what I want in life. I know what scorpios have extreme sides. They are maniplative, they are distrusting, they are indeed jealous. But after all the negative the sun shines as well. In bad moments I had told earlier, with other people. He is honest with me. And told me not to think about it or says "who cares". I'm a person that takes things personal even I have nothing to do with it or that person. He been a total a$$. He told me to be good with my family and to give them a chance, because I have some much trouble with friends, with relatives. At school friendships ended or mistrusted like that, gossip all kind of dirty stuff. And I tell you I'm not that innocent my self but I do care about what is important for me the most. I know that it sound weird to have a much older parther in life. And all kind of thoughts are rolling. But this what we have is at heart value. And to be loyal can be blind. He has a job, sometimes he is overworking. I see him, he nearly can open his eyes. And he had his own house, with a laptop and printer and everything. He takes care of his sister. He have a sister. I heard her talking on the phone. I don't know what I'm missing in the relation. Only that sometimes time is in my way..
@2knowmeis2luvme: He is indeed controlling at some point, but he doesn't have certain expectations. He wants me to live my life he is not stalkerish in any kind. Only thing he hates if I would be with someone else and not telling him that. I lost my innocence to him. And he told me I need to choose. I choose to be with him, and I didn't know or expect he would be to good to be true. I've dealt with alot of feelings of hatred, I felt like being mistrusted, I was afraid. But somehow it just changed. He never abused me, I was the one getting so tempered. Only thing I couldn't stand was the mind games and things that just makes me angry. But he never call me bad stuff or anything, I was the one who just was angry at times. I think he is the brave one staying with me. He could leave 5 months ago or even earlier. things always changes..
Now you say it I love swimming, I'm really a water animal. I love going to the beach. Last year I went on vacation twice was really fun.