I understand how you feel. I am a Cancer and I am confusing to my Self. Yes when we get hurt the hurt stays. I have been in therapy and I am getting to the root of it but I know that I won't be able to commit for a long time. Also, the crab is amphibious belonging to both land and sea. Because of this ability, Cancerians have a severe problem with intimacy. Have you recommended therapy to him? Is he an alcoholic? Is this what you really want if he does not seek help?

I understand how you feel. What helped me was studying the Tarot and practicing ceremonial magick. Cancerians are psychic by nature and it is imperative that you learn how to protect your Self by casting white light about you before you go out and learning what healthy boundaries are with people. I used to hate my Self but that was because I did not understand my Self but noww that I had an astrology chart done, I realize all of my unique qualities and how I can use them to help my Self and others heal. Other options include, working with crystals, studying Reiki and looking into Wicca and the study of the moon and what the different cycles mean. Also, keep a log of your dreams because that is your higher self trying to reach you. All of the answers are inside of you and you will find a way to make you happy because noone else can.