H i ! Regarding my situation Ive been involved with someone for 6 months.

Thanks for your response but no Im not into any drugs at all or alcohol. Now that I think about it I should have never posted this. These were my own thoughts.

and start over where I left off?!?!?

Well since 2 years ago when I left my old job of 5 years I was ready to pursue new things to be a new me. To maybe settle to grow... to change... kinda hide away from the world. Well things went crashing down & ever since Ive been back & forth with wanting to go back to this job because things have been up and down ever since. I got my heart broken really bad 2 years ago & after that a whole whirlwind of mess.. yet have not been able to let go of the past & who I once was.

Yet when I leave my job after visiting I feel kinda free but Ive been stuck in such limbo ever since. Usually when what is done to me is done but Ive been confused and in limbo ever since. Wanted to pursue new things but always stuck unsure of myself. I went through a very tragic experience with my family & I just dont know what to do or if I will ever be concrete in my decisions again.

Ive been trying to get away for so long from the old me & the old group of people I had that maybe my old job feels like a safety net for once was my life in order.

Its like I cant really dedicate myself to something new when Im holding onto the old. I honestly never want to go back to my old job again but Im constantly pushed back and pushed back to it. Everyone goes shopping there. Everyone shares my business with everyone there its like I cant move forward from these people.

I feel like being so involved with all this and others & the past is keeping from being secure & confident & dedicated to someone in my life. Instead of confiding in the man Im with I feel like Im confiding in everyone outside of which therefore destroys my relationships. How do I break out of this?!?! Or should I just fess up to this and attempt to get my old job back?!? Should I just give up on the road I was on & throw my hands up & get back there?!?

Im going to wait on it. Im going to clear my head of this issue for tonight Ive got so much ahead for me this week. Thank you for your offer.

Yes I would like your insight thank you!!

3/8/83 - Me

10/01/70 - #1

As for guy #2 I dont know.. only that he is 37 all I got is 1970.. I purposely told him not to tell me at least for awhile as I didnt want to get to caught up in astrology about him. Is there anything else I could give you in place of that?

Thank you for your offer!

I just really love him & dont know how to get to him. I need more guidance.

Astra Angel,

Im sorry if my response before seemed rude. I was just upset. I had called him way before I got a response here. The thing here is that Im not chasing True Love. I love Guy #1 we just had this strong intense stuff going on between us... I was getting over some serious stuff also in my life. Ive called him randomly over time. I just dont know what to do when it comes to him. We were both in love with eachother & I just kept running & I want him back but Im scared to humiliate myself again.

AstraAngel....

Ive decided to go for what you said & pursue guy #1