i saw your topic, and i couldn't be indiferent to it.
i learned many things along with my life.
Last thing you need to do is geting thoughs like those ones.
please, don't feel sad, lonely or sad.
head up, smile, because if u don't take care of yourself who else is going to do it?
i feel bad, cuz i can't help you with a hug, or just cheer you up, that's why i had replied to your topic.
if you need to talk, please email me.
i just can't see someone unhappy, cuz i feel the same, but life it's just one, and you need to take profit of it at maximum.
hope i put at least a smile in your face
best wishes, everything will get better.
x x x