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thanks

new york, ny

btw thanks scribe 1

my birthday if 19890507 july 5, 1989, 7/5/1989

i feel submissive and out of place when i smile, i talk to myself in the mirror, pretty weird but i've actually been fond of this. and have adapted the saying im my own best friend and worse enemy. im radical at times, in a family environment, i have to "play father" and im extremely vocal to my parents about my younger siblings as far as guiding them in the right way, gets me put in the doghoue not to mention my home situation isnt very good right now , its constant back and forth between my mother and step father and i am now in the sense of the word minus financial and economical situation a better more complete whole man t han he is, and its causing him stress. even when i try not to be alpha male its like ppl look for me to be that. they look at me as if wondering when im gona do something, at least i think. bottom line, friends are decreasing, love life is a rollercoaster, family are my biggest haters, and i walk outside with a vengeance. i think its time for the startof the fighting career. the reason im not really happy person outside is due to the things i've endured so my aura and facial features and expressions wont change in life, im a warrior , a fighter, peacemaker, prohet, good samaritan and teacher.

i also have these moments where i get happy around ppl i really cant stand, and they really enjoy it, they love me for it but it just messes up my moods cus i just switch to the complete opposite

in reality im not a very happy person but my body is accustomed to doing things that generate happiness such as working out. im ex military so im just programmed evryday no mater the weather or what i grab my 5 year old boxer (dog) and we head out to the park. i havnt realized this until today when a strange man stopped me and was like wow you musta just finished working out i was all like "WHAt'd YOU SAY TO ME?" im a cancer so i figure why not turn to other cancers like myself for a lil help. i gotten a little to wher i wanna be so all im doing now is maintaining. no crazy psycho beasty shit (stuff) i just feel i got a standard to live up to. also a lil brain food for all you out there. im a firm believer of the afterlife. i can share some of those thoughts with ya'll. get back to me . thanks

PEACE

i caught it bad. it all started with me coming back home and convincing myself i was on vacation. then my creative genious decided to start my own ramadan. i've gotten so into myself. its scary. i feel better and stronger than ever. but my train of thought is way too expensive for me. Before i was reckless, lacking self control, no discipline, straight wild, crazy lifestyle. it sounds cheesy but now im one with my body and soul. my mind still wanders and dreams but im always on point. im trying out for a semi pro team next month which is a lil serious but its whateva. all i do now is a few good deeds for my mother, listn to music and cruise around on my board. my life is pretty grounded right now. i need some advice or help or some talking to.

get at me

i wasnt too much of a believer of this stuff but wow. im not the only one. im a wicked strong person but lately i just been pouring my feeling and emotions to myself. i got a angry. i did some things im not proud of but the feeling was just unbearable even for me. i thought maintaining a single status would atract the opposite sex more and make me more secure. wrong. i look in the mirror and im 100% content. i go outside, with each person i pass thers a modd switch. i hate it. im going to see a shrink cus im depressed. i've been weeding out all my friends. and im back to being a loser. its unbearable but what keeps me going is my drive. knowing that thers a mission and a destination for me. also my training habits. i recently just clashed with my cousin and my grandmother. 3 cancers under the same roof. i'Ve been depressed foor a while. cancelling dates, distancing, and looking for fights. i need a strong but delicate cancer woman

I AM SUPREME