Hope has given me personally the strength overcome a variety of obsticals I otherwise surely have never over come. From the Superficial physical attributes when the left side of my face was destroyed in a car wreck, to my first child escaping the brink of death, Losing my health, questioning my own mind, giving all of my being to someone who used, abused , and disgarded what was left of me, only to continue to bully and psychologically batter me with fear...

I have survived and will be a stronger person for all the tragic events I have over come.

There is a higher power that brings hope to those who need .. some times we are the tools that are used to bring that hope. Listen you will here it .. Listen and you will deliver.. Feel the streangth, empowerment, the knowledge that Hope is a powerful tool given,shared and taught ; a gift we all can give and recieve, if we choose.

You need to seperate yourself from your own situation to get more insight. Stop,Step back write down what you see. Then look back into your relationship you believe you are longing for.....write it down.... Breath...Now look back to that person you admired 8 years ago......write it down............rest. After you have recovered the emotional exaustion of this journey ...be it a day,or a week. Only then take out your notes,read them and you will recognize all the answers you are looking for will appear to you,reassure you, and allow you to continue with the calm, growth, and confidence that have elluded you. Believe it.