Hi, i am having a really hard time at the moment. there just seems to be more and more problems happening in my life and i dont have any idea what to do any more...
I lost my job in January, only 2 months after my partner and I got our first house. I have worked for almost 10 years now and i was mortified, and i am so scared. i have bills etc to pay and i have been applying for everything/anything to get some money back in.
then the week later, my bank account was wiped by fraud online, everything but 40 was taken. i have been dealing with this, but it does take time.
my partner works away, something which i never really have been happy about, but he has been away since last year, and he was due to finish his job end of next week, spoken with him this morning and its been extended up to Easter, but even then there is a slim chance they will post him near me, so it will quite possibly still be a long distance relationship.
On top of all this going on, i am having to deal with all the issues of a new house, having engineers coming to the house, dealing with broken fridge/freezers etc etc and setting up all the bills direct debits bla bla bla, on top of that i have bills that i know are outstanding and no matter what i do i lie awake at night (alone) worrying and panicking about the mess i am in... i just feel like i am sinking, i dont know how much more i can take, i am only young, but i feel like i have been battling forever. its just too much responsibility and too much to deal with alone. i try to speak with my partner about it, but he doesnt like it, and gets angry at me, because he says there is nothing he can do.
I know he has to work, but i am feeling so pressured and so alone right now, most people if they loose their job etc have someone to come home to and to help but i feel so alone.
my family aren't much help, they all have their own things going on, i had a car, but my mum needed to borrow it, and so shes got it, and even though all this is happening to me, she hasn't even offered to help with the car finance payments, even though she has my car. (and a job!)
I know i may sound like a spoilt winy person right now but i assure you i am not, i don't want pity but i feel very much like i cant turn to the obvious people in my life.