Is there anyone who can find the time to do a reading for me.... need guidance in a serious way

Hello, My name is Angela, I dont even know where to start.... soo much going on in my life all the time... going through really tough times.. and on top of it all...im trying to figure out all these different feelings i get.. very interested in finding my strangths..my grandfather is suffering from cancer i do realize he does not have much time left.. but i feel like there is something going on, that may not be in his best interest, and its a strong feeling i get when im in the home... and thats just a the tip of the ice burg...