Beautifully stated and timely for everyone
Hi Hans Wolfgang!
I always appreciate your insights at key times in my life. You never fail to speak what I need.
About a year ago, you predicted a shift in my work life. This turned out to be a very fortunate time, meeting new friends and developing dynamic relationships. I have been able to integrate my work with my spiritual life in a way that's been lacking for a while.
An opportunity I have wanted for several years has come open in another department. Several synchronicities have popped up during the past few days, running into old coworkers from bad traumatic jobs, etc, also people who have beat me out for promotions in the past going for this slot... its all highly energetic and I recognize these things can be as much to clear old junk as they are signs of change in workplace. Clearing old karma is never bad.
My current boss is one of my best friends and has put in a good deal of time getting my applications ready, etc. He's a Pisces. He's also without question a soul friend. Part of me wants to go for the job; part of me is torn and wants to stay where I've been so happy and fulfilled. There's nothing romantic or sexual here, just that sense of duty and connection and loyalty. I love working for him. It's been an amazing experience.
Since you predicted this originally, I'd like your input into what's happening now. I'm getting old enough to realize being type A is not always the key to spiritual happiness. I also realize complacency and comfort isn't a good reason to stay put, either.
Thanks in advance for your thoughts, stories, musings.
Happy All Hallows Eve, Hans Wolfgang.
I appreciate the clarification... and all those ten thousand things which make up my contradictions, I still don't accept.. and I still call them my shame. You're right. Without embracing them, I'll never find peace.
And yes, this fits with Victor Hugo as well, because I hide it, from myself probably more than anyone. He's a wise one too, even today he was with me a good deal of the day as if he knew I was dealing with something.
And I still wonder why I seek it out there... at least I am not the only one.
Opposites fold in upon themselves always, and in the end there is only coming home.
Bear with me, I'll get there in a thousand years or so. Or maybe next breath.
The passive agressive traits you describe are only too familiar to me.
That first childhood wound leads to a pattern of testing, loving, testing, and, upon rejection, a cruelty to self and others I have worked all my life to release from myself. Mostly it's damage to myself now, which is worse. And yes, I am capable of carrying a grudge for years.
Some Virgos have it, and some don't. My brother doesn't have it. My male Virgo friend has it just as I do. Other planets must soothe or minimize the damage for the lucky ones.
Autumn is my favorite time of the year for those tumbling leaves and all the smells and the chill. I spent a wonderful autumn in Germany about ten years ago in Hesse visiting my teacher. This season just vibrates for me.
And... I thought I was making progress. Sheesh. I am one of the most predictable people I know, I won't even adventure on a menu in a restaurant. But I'm inconsistent? I don't know how to take that... and contradiction?
I contradict myself in love? Probably. Life? I fear being hurt and so... I try to just love and let go of judging and labels. Someone once told me that, to surrender and let go.
Funny you mention Victor Hugo. We have a joke about Jean Valjean.
It's good to talk with you again. Much love!
Happy Autumn, Hans Wolfgang. I hope the season finds you well and happy.
Some months ago, we had a short interaction about a coworker of mine. You had told me he was definitely interested, but for many reasons it wasn't happening, mostly that he had many to "impress". You had also told me my work life was about to open and progress, to just go with the flow and things would move at work.
Things did indeed move with proper application and flow, and lo and behold, I was given a job with more responsibility, more fun (!).. and guess it, I know you can... I am now working side by side with my twinkly eyed friend every day. I'm not sure how long this work assignment will last, but I already fear losing it AND my new friend. I am getting much better at going with the flow and living gratitude, yet I am clinging hard to this one because I am attached.
And so, I come back to you. What's the deal with my buddy? Fellow Virgo, around 28 years old, tall, skinny, floppy brown hair and glasses. Big grin, belly laugh. Does he actually appreciate what's going on between us now that we know each other better, or is it just the same old blues song?
Thank you for all you do. Namaste.
Hello Hans Wolfgang,
I hope spring and summer are treating you well. I have been busy with my new job requirements, which you predicted some time ago. I am trying hard just to enjoy the experience, as it flowed to me as a gift, and trying not to attach on holding it or keeping anything. I begin to understand work is a meditation and it really matters not what the work actually IS... just do and be. now if I can just live it every day.
I also loved the Osho story. Osho said there was a bond between himself and my teacher, and I see it. Makes me smile and giggle at the most inopportune times when my ego is acting up.
All love and happiness!
I love the animal connection part of this thread... been through some of the other human connections, been there, done that, got the t shirt -- and not always bad, either!
Pets, though, are something truly special. I have a toy fox terrier who should have crossed long ago who has stayed with me, for many reasons. I am grateful to God for this little creature. I don't think I can ever repay what this dog has given to me... so I love as long as I am allowed, and will continue to love after it's time for him to cross the Rainbow Bridge.