Thank you for your reading. I thought I was right and you are too. I did bring this upon myself. Due to the way situations were handled from the take over of this position and throughout I no longer felt passion and saw it as more of a burden that anything. I saw the writing on the wall a couple weeks ago but didn't care enough to try and change it. I did bring it on myself and frankly can not believe how happy I am it's over. Like a weight has lifted. I have one more meeting to attend to and then finish off season.
As for my siblings, not really. My sister was my Mom's favorite. I was always closer to my step father still to this day.My Mother and I are very different souls. Lots of love and attention.My Father passed when I was 4. Could that be it?
I do need to be my own boss, I have never followed well and tend to work better for myself...in the CRAFTY market. I have been doing that for quite sometime. I'm looking into starting a business venture with less physical demands.
I felt things were heading in the right direction in the love area for me. I was just confused when the cards showed deception and thought it maybe showing my coworker. We've overcome past obsticales and seemed to be moving in positive direction. Maybe the flounder you see is the decision I am faced with that will effect so many. I feel your right, I am floundering, it's a big step and the unknown future is a bit frightening.
Thank you for you reading it was unbelievably right on target, Many Blessings.