Im curious as to what the reading was. You're not completely off but not really answering the heart of what I was asking. The financial situation is difficult but if teaching is the right path for me then I will get a job at some point and that will be mostly alleviated. I went into teaching to be able to spend more time with my own child and it actually paid more then my previous job. I was working social services at the time and it had become depressing, and I had become jaded and tired. I wanted to do something that made me feel optimistic and inspired, and I wanted to inspire others. My goal has always been to live a life that matters, and I thought teaching would offer that. But I have run into walls from the beginning. I got a job teaching under a pending license, but didnt get rehired because requirements changed. Met those requirements but the economy had taken a downturn and they were no longer hiring. Took my parents advice and moved with them to Tn as the economy was supposed to be better. It took almost two years to get my license here because they kept asking for additional vr or requiring another test they neglected to mention I had to take. I got a job, but again it was under a pending license. The principal promised to rehire me but at the last minute changed his mind with no explanation. By that time most of the hiring for the year was done. Ive applied for anything that comes open but havent even gotten an interview. I like teaching and have been told Im good at it, but I follow a somewhat Taoist belief that the universe leads you where you need to be if you just follow the signs it gives you. Im trying to figure out if all these obstacles are leading/pushing me somewhere or trying to tell me I took a wrong turn. Being on time has been difficult for me in the past, but did not play a factor recently as far as I know. The last couple of recommendations Ive gotten have listed me as very dependable. I did have an issue with one coworker at my last job, but the rest of the dept had issues with him as well. Several of them stated they were really irritated that the principal kept him and got rid of me. As for getting outdoors, it hasnt been above 23 degrees, windchill 15 all week. I grew up in FL, I hate the cold and dont tend to do well in it, tho getting out by myself is probably not a bad idea, but somewhere indoors.
As for doing things for others, that relates to the other question about my life/destiny path. Thats what Im trying to do, but I was trying to figure out if Im going about it in the right way. Not sure where the car thing came from, my car is only a couple of years old, I have no problems with it whatsoever. Ive been trying to open my mind, was blocked for a while but it seems to have cleared. I just dont know if the answers Im getting are real or just something in my own head. Im not sure what you mean about using past experiences. Can you explain more about that?