I couldn't really tell... I think it's more about the actual person you're dealing with than the sign itself but as a Scorpio woman, I can tell you that sometimes, I do take hasty decisions out of fear of being hurt. And I also tend to harshly regret these decisions and often come back... I don't know if it's a Scorpio thing.

Now, you've been hurt, I think you should talk about what her decision to break up made you feel with her

Hello,

I'm new here and I don't really know if it is possible to ask for a reading in here but if so, here's what's troubling me:
I'm single, I've mostly always been my whole life and my own love readings are really dark and gloomy. I don't know if I can't seem to interpret them correctly or if my future in the love area is really "doomed".

My past very short-lived "relationships" have always been disappointing to say the least, the men I met weren't putting any efforts to it, which of course led to them leaving me pretty abruptly. I really don't know what's wrong with me and I'm heavily exhausted by my ever non-existent and disillusioning love life.
I'd like to know if I'll finally find both that emotional and physical connection I crave for, a true partner.

Thanks and sorry if I've made you feel in low spirits.

But how can I do that if I'm not even aware of it?
Are there any tips or methods?

Thank you @TheCaptain for answering.

I think my inner compass is really broken because the very first impression I have about someone is most of the time wrong.
When I think someone is truthworthy, I let my guard down and then I end up betrayed. When something - I don't know what - feels wrong about someone, I end up being wrong about them but I discover it too late.

I try to go with the flow, to not expect anything, to let things happen naturally... but I feel like I'm always the only one giving and when I dare saying I need to be reassured about the other person's intentions, it is as if I was asking for too much. Maybe I am. Maybe I shouldn't want for an equal give and take. I don't know, like you said, nothing works. This is why I was asking for a reading.

They never wanted to talk about the break up, they just wanted to end things quickly. I think I got too burdensome and they wanted to get rid of that feeling, but I can't be 100% sure.

Yes, the lack of trust is a huge problem in my relationships, I tend to ask myself a lot of questions about whether they were really serious and as they weren't showing any truly sign of interest (except from a physical one), I was less and less confident in myself and the relationship.

And yes again, I have mental requirements for a love partner but they only cover the basis, I think (someone nice, blablabla, polite, blablabla, faithful, blablabla... I don't have an exhaustive list such as: he must have blond hair, be 6 feet tall, be fit, have brown eyes, work in this or that industry... and love me forever and make myself a queen!).

I don't trust in my intuition at all. Actually, I have none. My gut feelings could tell me to trust a sociopath and to send a true angel in hell so... I try to look for facts or signs of affection (someone listening, remembering, trying to make me smile or laugh or... things like that) rather than listening to what I think is my intuition but could in fact only be my wishful thinking (I don't know how to make the difference).

@OJ Thank you and sorry for answering only now, I needed some time to read about intercepted houses and signs ; even though I still don't quite get it
I also don't understand the duplicated signs

Also, should I also look for the rulers of the houses that are intercepted and will those rulers also be about blocages?

And I tend to not understand what my blocages are about in my BC. I do get the meaning of each sign and house when separated but put together?

- Pisces intercepted in the 2nd house:
I might lack rational structure when things are money and material-oriented? Too much "head in the clouds" and seeking (material) security through my imaginary / unrealistic dreams instead of building a concrete plan to achieve it?
Pisces also rules the house of sacrifice (12th) but I don't see any link???
Sacrifice my day dreaming nature?

- Virgo intercepted in the 8th house:
Overanalyzing my intimate relationships / joint ventures?
Too much seriousness and perfectionism in those areas?
Maybe I tend to live the changes and transformations that take place in my life in a way too serious manner?
Virgo governs the 6th house about health and routine but I still don't see any link.
I also have Junon and Vespa in this intercepted Virgo I don't know what to think about it...

- the 4th house intercepted in Taurus:
Lack of stability at home?
As a way out of the blockages caused by the intercepted Pisces in the 2nd house, maybe working on a concrete plan to gain stability in finance and at home would help?
This house is also about motherhood and feminity but ?

- and the 10th house intercepted in Scorpio:
I don't get it but it seems to pimpoint something link with my career and reputation. Many career changes? Again, maybe I should work on it to gain more stability (also, my North Node is in Taurus and if I get it right, the North Node is something we should go towards so stability and pleasure, it seems?)

And finally, I don't know what to look for in my birth chart to help overcome these blocages.
There's so much to uncover in a birth chart... I don't even know if what I'm interpreting is correct

@OJ The birth time I have is the one written in my infant health record, it is the only birth time I have.

Yes, you're right, 7 empty houses, I looked at my birth too quickly and forgot about the 9th and 12th houses.
I also have Chiron in 5, Lilith in 3, North Node in 4, Part of Fortune in 1 and Vertex in 7, but for now, I'm more focus on the planets. Baby steps

I'm not sure what a bundle pattern is (all the planets in a 120° angle?) but I link a picture to my post so that you can see by yourself if you're interested.

Again, thank you!

Long message incoming, sorry!

I'm kind of... Yeah, I'll have to disagree on this, sorry. I mean, it could be unconscious (very, veryyy unconscious then) but i really do want commitment and I don't fear it. The thing is, I refuse to accept anybody as a partner. I don't think I ask for too much, that my standards are too high but it always have been difficult for me to be both physically and emotionnaly attracted by someone and yeah, when I am, it doesn't work out. This is also why I end up being very disappointed when it ends. The men I've met so far were truly looking for commitment, they were not unavailable (one of them got married a year after our breakup so I think he was pretty available) but between us, didn't work out.

Plus, I've never had any family difficulties nor have I suffer from abuse / trauma but I don't know, it just does not work out. Probably because of the way I communicate, I tend to close myself off when something goes wrong and when I'm ready to talk, it's already too late for the other person.
You said it could stem from chilhood and I've always been spoiled by my parents so maybe, if I don't get the things I want, the way I want them, I shut myself off, which leads to a breakup

I know I've never had any very long relationship but I do know what it takes to be in a serious commited relatioship: I do know there are ups and downs and I've always been ready to live them, I don't live in a fantasy world but I've also always been the only one putting in the effort.
So indeed, deep down I do really yearn for a close, loving bond with someone and a safe secure home life. And I already see relationships as a process of ups and downs, entailing learning, maturation, and [above all] mutual support. It has always been the way I see love and relationships. But still, it does not work. And I'm sorry to say that but I'm not looking for a challenge or a training. I don't want to lie to myself by making a deception a training or a way to improve myself. A deception remains a deception. A relationship that doesn't work out remains a failure. I mean, I can learn from it, keep good memories about it but still, it failed. I won't say it is always the "same old, same old" but in the end, I am still single. I've learned a lesson in the process, great but still, I'm single. And it is not what I'm aiming for.
It is the same thing when you have to play a game: you go to win hopefully, not only to participate, right? This is the way I view things on love: I might get a million lessons but if in the end, I haven't found my person, what's the point?

Now, you are absolutly right about the fact I do need a calmer centre to control [my] tendency to emotional extremes. I do tend to shut myself off when something doesn't work out the way I wanted it. It's always after I close myself off they run away. No discussion possible, no trying to understand why, they just don't want to talk things out. I think i was too much of an annoyance.
I guess my question should have been more about will I meet someone who will try to understand me, put in the effort, be patient as any normal true partner would. As I would actually.

You are also right about the fact that I sometimes am aloof, or seem to be more precisely. I'm pretty shy and people often tell me I seemed not interested or in my head when they first met me. So you're right, it is definitely an obstacle I have to work hard on.

Thanks for your help and I am sorry if my message sounded agressive. English isn't my native language and it sounded agressive to me whereas it was not at all my intention.

Thanks, both of you!

@TheCaptain I struggle in every areas where I have an empty house in my birth chart This is why I was wondering if this "emptiness" meant something specific. But you're right, of course it comes from my perception and / or the persons I deal with. I don't like using Astrology as an excuse, I was just being curious about what it could mean. And actually, looking for the rulers as it was mentionned by @OJ kind of pimpointed my struggles, that's a bit crazy.

@OJ Thanks a lot, it really helped!
I have 9, almost 10 empty houses
For the introvert / extrovert part, I'm not sure to get it... I'm a big introvert but the majority of my planets are above the horizon.

I think you should. I'm not sure if she will answer but at least, you won't have any regrets about whether you should have told her or not...
She may ignore you out of pride or sadness, maybe even both. But you won't know until you tell / ask her. And again, if she doesn't answer, at least, you won't have any regrets since you'd have done everything you could.
I truly hope she will answer and that it will work out for you.

Thanks for answering.

It's kind of a relief, I really thought it was the contrary since I do tend to struggle in the areas where my houses are empty (House / Family, Health, Partnership / Love mostly).
Maybe there are other things to take into account that could explain why these struggles. I'll try to know more about aspects, I know some of them are harmonious or opposing, even "malefic". I need to learn, learn, learn

I couldn't really tell... I think it's more about the actual person you're dealing with than the sign itself but as a Scorpio woman, I can tell you that sometimes, I do take hasty decisions out of fear of being hurt. And I also tend to harshly regret these decisions and often come back... I don't know if it's a Scorpio thing.

Now, you've been hurt, I think you should talk about what her decision to break up made you feel with her