Thanks Ahliyah! It's still so very hard for me to grasp the gone forever concept except only with me now in heart and mind. He is always in my heart and forever love. I miss him so much!
Got to go for now! Thanks a bunch!
Hey Everyone: I would like to thank all of you that have been praying with me to have contact with all the recipients.
Progress: I have been blessed with two phone conversations with Chris' liver recipient, Kendall. We are planning to meet within the next couple of weeks. He is doing very well! He always expesses such gratitude! I'm excited to get to meet him.
Still nothing from the other two. Still praying for this to happen also.
Hey Everyone! This is the last pic of Chris for the Junior Class Annual. For the past few years he refused to smile for school photos. And you cant really see his beautiful brown eyes either but I'm grateful to Weepingwillow for getting these pics on here. I had a heck of a time and gave up; apparently she had some problems too. Anyway, here they are.
Thank so very much WeepingWillow! LOL- I never take good photos! But, this was the last pic Chris and I took together before he died. I was usually behind the camera. And...I have lost some weight since then...imagine that! Oh well- now there's a face with the name for both of us.
Welcome to this forum thread. Please don't ever be ashamed or apologize for having feelings (being sensetive as you put it). I raised my son in a way that he learned to tune into his feelings and to allow himself to feel things in a much different way than most men i know. I never allowed anyone to EVER say or tell him that "boys don't cry". And believe me when I say that he had a heart of GOLD! And three years, I know, must seem like an eternity. I know these past 10 months sure have.
I'm so sorry for your loss (your sister). It sounds like she was a tough yet loving person. My heart goes out to you and Shelby! OMG! I don't know what that would be like to come home and find a loved one. May I ask, how she is doing?
I hopw you will take the time to read all the comments that have been shared in this thread. There's alot of sad stories that may make you cry. But, there is also alot of good suggestions and guidance presented that has truly helped me. Maybe you can too find some peace and comfort here. And I do hope you will stay with us in this thread.
What a night! I had a really tough night last night! My heart has ached for the past week...literally! I kow what it is and I maintained within some peace through most of it this time; but, last night got me and hard! 10 months yesterday! And it seems like it's been an entire lifetime already!
I had a visit yesterday from my "adopted daughter" (not really but I always called her that). Her name is Katt and she and my son were inseperable for about 2 1/2 years. She practically lived with us for about a year. She stopped by to show me the High School annual with a tribute to Chris on the last page of the Junior section. We shared stories while we laughed together and cried together. Although it was a very emotional visit it was a great visit as well! She wanted to know if Chris's room was still the same? So we opened the door to his room and the first thing she said was "it still smells like him". And it does. I can't bring myself to go in his room very often. But ever now and then I will open it just to get a wiff of him.
So today, I try to start again getting through another day, seeking some peace! God ~ I miss him so much! Sorry, but I have to close this for now!
Thanks WeepingWillow: I will try that and see if it will work. Sorry your having a bad day, or week, or anytime. I understand this all too well. Sometimes it hits me hard without any notice what so ever! I keep you in my thoughts and prayers as with all the others from here!