Hey Mrs. Syvannh-
Yes, all the information you have given me has been very helpful. You are so right. That without trust you have nothing. It is very hard for me to trust him. But what am I supposed to do when all of these coiencedes keep happening. For instance just this week. On wed she asked me something about some vapor box used to smoke herbel trees out of. I told her to ask him about it because he would know more about it. She said I don't want to ask him about it. Mind you I just go back to work because I have been out on FMLA for the last 2 months. So I ask her where did you hear about this vapor box? She tells me the me, him, and her had this conversation a few weeks ago about it which is a bunch of bullshi* because none of us have been in the same room together since Feb when she came to his house to see me where I was recouperating. But she tries to tell me we all had this conversation. She asked me this on Wed. Then on Friday he tells me that he is going out to get this so called vapor box and he was really serious about going to get it, Now mind you he told me about this vapor box when we first starting dating a year ago and he has not brought it up again until Friday. Now why all of a sudden you are interested in getting this vapor box and it is a must have. So I told him to call her because she was asking about it and maybe they could hook up and do it together. But that is the type of stuff I'm talking about that is just to close for comfort for me. Little things like that. But you are right though I'm done wih trying to figure it out. Maybe they are sleeping together because I accused them of it at one time or another but it is not anything that they will admit to me. Instead I think they get off on the fact that I suspect but can't prove anything. I have a conversation with her about something then he turns around and says the same thing almost identical. I told him hey if you like it I love it I'm done with all of the mind games and bullcrap.Like I said it just hurts because I gave this man the benefit of the doubt and he just decided that he would be sweet for about 7 months and then turn into a ass. He still tries to act like he cares about me though. He asked me if I thought he was a dog and I told him yes. He looked like his feelings was hurt, and he tells me I'm not a dog. Call it what you like but anytime you play with womens emotons for your own gain then yes you are a dog. I thought everything he did for me, with me, to me was real but like I said maybe that is his MO. I told him if he truly cared about me, that when we hit the first rough patch it would not have been so easy for another to come in and for him to just walk away like I didn't matter, but still invited me to spend the holidays with his family and acting like he was really into me. RIght. All of a sudden he doesn't have time to spend with me on the weekends. He wants to hook up only on the weekdays.. now. Well I have had it! When he ask to see me on the weekdays now the answer will be no. I need to stay away from him for a few weeks and and maybe he will see what he is missing but I doubt it. Either the co worker has him puss* whipped or someone else does. He told me that he just wanted sometime to his self and I'm like whatever it is all a crock. But like I said I cry sometimes because I'm so hurt, and other times I'm angry. But if he wants me he is going to have to work at it. He was by my side throughout my operation and other things but he was just doing it because he sees me as his friend. Thing is he has a few female friends and all of them he has screwed. He says I cant be friends with women I have slept with. Sure you can, but you seem to have a pattern going on almost like you are trying to leave the door open if he wants to come back or something. Anyway, I have been sick again lately and on Friday he was like promise to call me if you have to go to the emergency room. I'm thinking hell if you are so concerned you call me to see if I need to go to the emergency room why am I calling you. He tells me if I don't call him then he won't speak to me again well at this point, I'm like whatever.. get your shi* together I mean he is about to be 40 and he is still talking and doing the same crap. I mistakenly thought he was mature.. wrong answer! he has not called me all weekend to even check on me because he really doesn't give damn all though he tries to act like he does. He was to busy this weekend with his tricks so screw him. Trust.. right will NOT trust anyone EVER again. I'm tired now.