OKAY TAKE THIS FOR WHAT IT IS WORTH.... I started reading and stopped and scrolled to the end... I can totally relate. 3 Years ago I was in a simular spot.... I felt that everything in the word was telling me to run, but my heart told me to hang on. There was a crazy 2 years in there, but now I have a daughter who is beyond complete joy and my lovers undying devotion and we are now married. Follow your heart, it is always right, trials are not always road maps for the future, sometimes they just are put there to make sure you are really wanting to get where your going. Only your heart can tell you if you are up for the ride.