You should not have to beg to hear I love you. Where is the satisfaction in that? You really do need to work on your self worth. If you dont like the idea of counseling then try some self help books or start at the very least telling yourself positive things everyday. Dont let any man break your spirit. Spiritually women are stronger then men. Men are only stronger on a physical level(Usually) You are stonger than your circumstance and then your past. Move forward and realize that God designed you the way he planned. You are perfect in Gods eyes and he loves you so so much. You were not created to be a doormat. You are special to God and very loved. Which is way more important than what any person on earth thinks of you. Be strong and recognize the things about yourself that are wonderful.