I apologize if I'm off or say too much. I'm exhausted.
Looks like you have been having very detailed fantasies of tropical vacations or packing up and moving somewhere far away. And I don't blame you - looks like a very tough run of luck for you has reached a pinnacle. I'm sorry to say that my current reading does not have you traveling anytime soon. I don't want to say much more because, well, you didn't ask and it's personal. I hope I'm wrong and you are on a white sand beach somewhere right now.