Haven't been successful in relationships? Married for 10yrs-Divorced. series of small relationships, they didn't want me...celibant for 4 yrs, waited and celibant on what the Lord had for me. That relationship is now over...what is planned for my life as far as relationship goes?

It sounds good and politically and emotionally correct to say to someone, once their out of a relationship that "you're going to find someone, more worthy of you". It sounds good, but it sure doesn't feel good, when you're in the process of the hurt..loneliness, pain, deseperation, wandering am I too old now to find love in my life? What does life have for me? knowing that I'm about to enter in the second stage of my life? This isn't the first for me to be lonely, I have been married and divorced. So another failed relationship. I now have grown children..almost 21yr old who is thinking about moving out. A 17 yr old who will be going off to college. Well, that just leaves me all by myself...So it certainly doesn't feel good to hear that I'll find someone else, when I thought I found them.....

Wow....I feel the exact same way...for the last 2 months I have been going through relationship issues, sleepless nights, sad, crying...I just want to be free and Live again!!

I'm now as I write this a newly single woman. I made a concious decision 4 years ago, to pray and to become celibant upon finding my to be husband. July 23rd of 2010. I met him, his name is John. We went on our first date 7/28/10. Wonderful, magically....I knew that he was he one....Until things started to drascially fall apart, about 2 month into our relationship. He lied to me and I found out by the woman presenting herself...he was seeing someone else along with me. He decided that he wanted to be with me, so we continued the relationship. It became more and more stormy..we took several breaks (all induced by him). We came back together with the same problems. He cheated on me during one of our breaks (it was only 3 day break) I slowly took him back. Well nothing ever seem to move forward, our biggest issues, beside the cheating-was he would never call me through out the day to see how I was. Long story short. I broke up with him 5.13.11, it was the end. He accepted it, he just let me go without even trying to get me back. Was this relationship just doomed from the begining? Am I horribly at fault for "trying" to make it work? Now the feelings that I'm left with, hurt like hell....