Well Laci what about you allow yourself to live your life then checking him out

Have not got enough of that yet? you are separated for a reason, this is your opportunity to start your life and live it how you want why second guess him ? and put some mental energy on trying to figure him out

whats the gain? move on

I think friendship is precious, if you feel that person was your best friend then keep trying and plus now you have no feeling for the guy its starting on better ground, you cannot be friend with someone that you fancy thats doesnt work but now that you missing the friend then its better

but I hope you are been honest then its the friendship that you are missing and not anything else romantic from it

Aquarius man or any men for the matter, the rule is dont chase him, be cool with it

I learn over and over again never mind how much you like and want someone, especially a man the guy need to show and communicate his need of us too and show that he want it too

We can go trying to read between the lines but Men in general are pretty straight of what they want but sometimes we dont hear it as one minutes they were close and cosy with us and the next minutes they are cold and you simply dont know what you did to deserve this

But a man isnt a child a man when he want you knows how to let you know

Keep yourself busy and keep looking, if this man want you he will catch up and when he does dont make it too easy and too comfortable for him

show him that now you are on your guard and not sure, let him work for it but he doesnt come back then you did well to move on and to keep yourself busy

My birthday: 03 February 1978 born at 3pm location : Morondava Madagascar

I do not feel attracted at all to air sign like Gemini, Libra but I like aquarius

I feel very attracted to earth sign: Capricorn, Taurus but not virgo

Thank you

Hi Can anyone share their experience with Capricorn man in relationship please? I dont get those guys, I met a Capri man and we clicked straight away, We spoken sometimes ago online then he disappear and reappear 4 months later. I did not really mind as I didnt see him as a boyfriend, then we met and stay with each other for 10 days

After I came back I made plan to move to his country and started to get job offer and find a place. I thought he will be happy with this but he offer me no help at all, his affection and especially contact with me diminished rapid in the days . He been looking for work for sometimes and did not find anything but he finally seemed to be on his way of breakthrough after one of his friend helped him to get a job.

nevertheless he kept bitching about that friend and insisted this person is not part of his friend . I helped him to prepare that interview but after he went for it he didnt want to talk to me about how it went and we never spoken about it again. I had my job interview too but he never asked me how it was for me. I sent him some gifts that he never acknowledge with a thank you. I am deeply disappointed with this guy.

His coldness is beyond anything I never met. Its so strange as when I was with him for the 10 days he was very affectioned. He was a bit heavy handed in the bedroom with smacking and bondage fantasy that didnt bother me much

It was new to me

but since I came back I feel all his over

When I told him that this relationship is not meeting my need he started to say yes many people told him he suck in relationship

he asked for another chance and when I gave him one he then blamed me to change my mind

is he crazy?

We dont speak anymore I left it alone

He embarrassment me so much. I just never met someone that is this way.

I feel for 10 days we had was just a facet and wasnt real

NOW I face this immature kid that dont want to communicate, dont want to face his responsibility to have been involved with someone else

Dont say nothing, and bring me nothing

Thanks God 2015 is calling me loud and I got no time for such nonsense

He is just a loser

Thank you so much I completely agree with you

Thank you

I want to understand what is it that ability that I got maybe if I can name it I can work around how to manage it better

Hi Everyone:)

I need your help to understand why something keep happening to me

There is a high chance I am an empath but the description just different and something major missing on the description of it that make me doubt I am an empath but I am something else I cant put the name on it

For many years , since I was young, I am able to tell with precision when someone got an illness , especially illness related to emotions, mental illness and emotional blockage.

Very quickly I am able to walk in , usually at night and become the person and see where the emotion or damage was done and cause of it

Usually my connection in the so called dream will always be with the "child" the person has the child not the actual adult I meet in my present time.

Very quickly without knowing the medical name before I am be able to say this person has this mental illness and usually I confront them with my finding and surprising most people I spoken to are now in some sort therapy and yes they had the issue they needed to deal with.

After the person start doing the work on themselves I usually disconnect

What I am? Why this is about?

I never wonder why I got this until recently this happen again but this time I fall on the name : Empath

I never wonder there were anything strange why I knew about all those people issues when they was not aware of it themselves.

The connection is not painful about the experience but painful to disconnect because they are usually my love partners

I never once find strange how did I know about it or question this until now

This happen continuously in my life

The reason I doubt I am an empath is the people that said they are empath report to be able to connect to others by their feeling or how they feel

This is not what I am doing through

I connected with an events that damaged this person or an emotional blockage and from there connect to all the reason and cause of this person and also their actually feeling and thoughts in the time.

I get some sort message to tell the person and some people have find my messages too much and too disturbing at once but later recongise them its just too much for them to hear it at once

for me I just say it without thinking for them it reasonate a lot

They asked me how you know about this and that?

I just dont know and never thought there were anything strange about it to be honest.

Now I wonder for the first time How did I actually know

Other things are many people just come from nowhere speaking to me and from whatever the exchange get they said I helped them see or understand things in way noone have done for them before.

In meantime I feel lonely, in pain to connect with others, I dont trust them and I start to no trust the message I feel about other I need to give

I closed myself inside

I now feel any partners that going to come to my life, are not going to come because of me , to love me but because someone out there want them to get healing.

I feel terribly lonely and sad

I am looking for love and For the past 2 years keep meeting men that get involved with me but chasing another women or telling me about another women

the latest guy got involved with me, i trusted hime after we got involved he told me he still with his girlfriend but somehow in some sort talk with her and also he met another girl his going to go on holiday with in two months

In meanwhile I felt the pain

I discover he had an issue too, childhood issues and I have now referee him to therapy but I am in pain, I thought I had a partner

and lost love again

Hi Mardeep , Thank you so much to share your experience I greatly appreciate it.

I understand completely what you are saying as it similar to my own experience especially the part you said: you have let yourself down,

It's funny, I took the decision to leave my abusive parents at age 10 and I did well since, I thought I was standing up for myself in way I was but all around me nobody gave me any recognition at all even now

Only my therapist

At home my parents won’t speak to me if they do they are verbally abusive toward me.

Very quickly in my little 8 years head I believe I deserved better then the life and parents I had

I can’t explain what made me be that way but I left my parents, find a job and a place at 10 years old

I been alone most of my life and it was fine

Eckhart Tolle “the power of now” I discovered his book at age 23 in 2003 and listen to his voice each morning since

For some reason I feel not the same and there is a peace in me , despite all issues i get right now

The issues started when i lost my job and rented my home, this open door to serious conflict situation for me

I didn’t predict to get attack, bullied, taken to court and police involved by renting my home to people but it did

I felt trapped as i couldn’t stop renting my house

If i stop i loss my home and be homeless and i have no friends and family that can help me if this happen

I did well most my life, moved to foreign country, learned a new language started working as cleaner then a nurse then in bank as analyst learned all on my own I did not go to university only home learning

I was earning 20,000 week crazy money but the more i was going up the more the people i called friends left my life

My parents no longer speak to me as i refused to give them money, i use to pay everything for them but i couldn’t afford it anymore as i didn’t have a job

Still i was smart enough to see the situation coming and when i brought my home planned if something happen with my job i rent my rooms

but this when the nightmare happen

For 3 long years impossible to get back to a proper job i had some job there and then but nothing long enough for me to change my mortgage for a cheaper one or to live without tenant

The tenants think i am full of cash as my home is stunning, the pride of my life [ I decorated the place myself and it seem I have some gift in interior designer] they don’t know my situation

A new bread of people rise up in year 2012 people that go around having also they own financial difficulty looking for rent free or something

Anyway i got judge by my neighbor, everyone

I started to develop fear, anxiety, felt helpless and so scared

This year [ i am snake so feel it’s my year ahahah] i feel much stronger to deal with situation,

It’s funny but I STOP responding and feeding my own need of drama and fights inside and calm it down

I feel less attack toward myself and somehow despite that outside people still attacking me and intimidate

This no longer affects me inside

I have Surrender to whatever outcome will come, there is a chance i get big issue with the law maybe to prison because so many people have reported me

But i feel i have nothing to blame myself for and whatever happen i welcome it

The report of the tenants are always around their deposit money but most of them sign up for 3 months then didn’t like something and demand their money on the same day and that’s not possible

I use to give in but I started to hold them to what they sign and that’s when problem happen for me

Despite when I go to court the judge understands this still having anxiety didn’t help me sometimes to give voice to the situation

I am tired to be fearful, it;s not who i am

I started badly with home renting it's a job you need to learn to control yourself a bite

i most say the whole bad experience have made me more peaceful, not stronger but peaceful

About letting go, well i do not feel this is the lesson i need to learn here

My lesson is to [Trust myself] somehow i was able to trust myself at age 10 but lost it somehow

Fear was driving my life; Fear can grow in you like a vicious cancer

I realize during my life through i think because no one gave me feedback that i was doing well, i know it can sound not right but if a child never heard this kind encouragement it can be a problem

Anyway i didn’t have this and still don’t have it in my life but i realize i was taking myself for granted

i was not noticing myself my own achievement and how far i came from

I took all of it for granted

And yes somehow I deserved to be where i was as my attitude wasn’t good and i was taking myself for granted more then anyone

Around me people see me like a very strong woman that doesn’t need support or feedback

People sucking to me as they thought i didn’t need any from them

I am an Aquarius and what do you hear about Aquarius???? Well they help people they are the humanitarian signs

So you help and help and help

Aquarius seem to attracted desperate case and lost cause, they invest a lot and can drain themselves out

I learned to have boundaries in my life and it's a great thing to learn as if you are a person that give and give and give no stop

Chance is you are not giving to yourself and you are not helping yourself

Last week with my Therapist i open my eyes there is a conflict in me with the child, the adult and someone else called the "Mocker" I thought that the” Mocker" was my inner child but no my inner child been protecting me

I believe now this conflict is going to balance himself as i am now aware of it

I wasn’t aware of it at all

I had issue all my life with situation like: someone says something to me during the day and i agree or do something or don’t do anything then i go to bed and the situation repeat and repeat himsef in my sleep

Then i walk up in morning and tell the person exactly what i feel about them or the previous situation

Then i feel good

For me this is ok but for the person in front of me they think i am nuts and hypocrite ahahah

This happen a lot in my life and i never really gave too much notice to it but now i realize this is the conflict inside of me

Someone in me want to be good and helpful, beloved and be accepted at all cost [this is not safe for me by the way]

But another person in me, scream, go away!!! You don’t need validation from nobody, and this person you trying to get love from doesn’t love you or himself for that matter, get out get out now

Usually the second person win but after a long period of pain because my first person trying to save this person that is not worth it

I haven’t find the solution yet but i know now this issue is expose at day light and a balance will be as those voices in me have a reason to exist in me i need to find a balance with myself about it

I realize few months ago i wanted to be in relationship ahahah looking for salvation in relationship ahaha its kind funny ahahah

I realize the reason i wanted a relationship was to feel safe but what I find is abusive, unavailable, no trust men ahahah

That’s because inside i wasn’t interested by them really i just wanted someone to fill my day, make me feel better, protect me [Go ahead fight those tenants for me ahahah]

Anyway the attention was personal, not genuine, not from love but personal gain

So yes when you feeling afraid, low ahaha what the solution go into a relationship ahahha

Lucky enough for me I found no one [No men] that took my generous offer to take my problems and insecurity on board ahahah

So I had to face my problems on my own and learn and I am so grateful for it really

Hello everyone

I noticed lately that i got a new me in me[ if thats make sense]

Most my life i been alone and it was fine, 3 years ago my life got more challenging after i lost my job, got a mortgage and got a lot stress on my shoulder for those 3 years and had noone to help, speak to or support through it

I had many drama during those 3 years

lately i noticed peace in me, it feel like the end of circle

I been feeling this peace for a while now but i didnt know how to read it

I used to care what other think about me

trying to get validation and love somehow

but this doesnt matter to me anymore

I have this conflict now inside about the old me trying to be nice and the other me that stand for herself

This conflict is not new it always been in me but now it's getting clearer and louder that is there

I actually see now that most the conflict i had with other was a reflection of the conflict that was happening inside of myself

Everyone want to be love, be with someone, have kids, have a job, home, ect....

I thought thats what i was after too but it's no longer feel this way

I am surrounded of problems, no friends, family or partners

I deal with conflict every day

My life is not perfect looking from the outisde but inside

I am ok, i am more then ok

but my mind want to find fault in that state, reason that i dont deserve to be in that state

but i am learning to love myself more then ever

I am not afraid to be alone

and dont feel alone ever

i just welcome every experience how they come

Is anyone experienced this kind experience and kind want to share as i still dont know how to be this new me