Wow thankyou Captain Lots of food for thought!! and also very humbling. My bottom lip has been out most of the day lol I have been doing alot of self examination and you helped to bring home some very important insights into myself that I was not able to conceive. PATIENCE and learning to connect more with my outer world. I have been a hermit for the past 6 years and ended up completely going within my cancer shell. I can see where I am holding myself back more clearly now. Growing up I lost my inner self confidence and love, it was slowly ebbed away with others judgements. I guess I was looking for love and support outside myself, and become accustomed to the fact that not everyone else could give and receive. I think I was in love with the idea of love, and I didn't truly understand its true meaning of compassion, devotion, loyalty and giving without the need for it to be reciprocated. I hope I csn learn from my mistakes and not make the same relationship mistakes. For now I am happy and content being single and I am on a new path of self discovery, daring to be bold and do all the things that are in my heart, getting out there into the big wide world. Thankyou for giving me a nudge with my gifts, I have always been told that I am too sensitive, and I often hid myself away bcos I didn't want to be bombarded with others feelings and thoughts. I used to think it was me, that I was horrible for having negative thoughts and feelings, and the anger that I could feel of people was unbearable, no wonder I used to run for my shell lol. I am slowly learning to trust myself more and be more self forgiving and loving, and i am slowly accepting my given gifts to help other people. I have learnt alot from my last relationship and sometimes mistakes are golden. How could I understand others pain if I had not experienced it myself. I was lost in despair as to why my relationship was being taken away from me. It wasn't, we had both learnt our lessons and healed our soul mate relationship. It was my own fault lol, I asked the universe for true love and then my friend turned up and in come confussion!!. I did a Composite chart, I don't know his time of birth but when ever I do tarot readings he always comes up as either the King of Cups or the King of Wands (quite funny, he actually has an emblem of his company on his shoulder, as depicted in the King of Wands card). I cannot work out if he is Aries or Sagittarius rising, and when I did the composite/synastry chart it almost makes a Grand Sextile (A star, two overlapped triangles) This is why I requested your help, so thankyou for your insights, I need to slow down and heal those things in myself first that I am lacking and give him space to heal too and be there for him as a friend.
Thankyou for your insights and wisdom, I am eternally grateful for your help and kindness xxx