I read your post and canfeel that you are in turmoil emotionally. I can tell you that from your birthdate, which makes you a Scorpio born in the Chinese year of the dog, that you are very emotionally intense and a hard worker, very loyal. This being the year of the tiger (my very own year) which is known for fast and drastic, speeding-bullet changes and all kinds of upheaval, you most definitely are being affected by this. However, since dog and tiger generally hold each other in high regard, it shouldn't be an altogether bad year for you. You already work hard and this should pay off in spades for you but please do not forget to make time for personal indulgences; you are so busy seeing to others that you've neglected your spiritual core self. You yourself are worth all the self-sacrifice and loyalty that you give to others. Tiger is a wild and crazy year for most everyone but as the year winds down you will find that your marriage may have suffered because of all the other directions your attentions have gone. All is not hopeless here; if you feel that your marriage is worth saving, then try to slow down a bit and spend time with your husband to find out what the two of you together can accomplish. I hope that this helps somewhat, and I wish you peace; you deserve it.