Hi Ladies, haven't been here for a while.
As they say starting over a leaving the past behind is good, and learn the lessons needed to be learn as you will re-peat until you do.
That's being my experience, So I felt the essence of him to help me have closure, I felt him when I need a positive boost, but in time that's gone because I don't need it so much,.What I find was strange why would I feel the essence of a guy I felt a connection too through on-line, never met in person and a year to the day (give take a day or to) his essence and remembering every thing we talked and his ideal of a man id like to have.
Two things I find weird, is that when you work shifts it's hard to join something and find it works with you, so I just by chance see these dancing classes fall within work and the meditation too, so I took it as a sign as this don't happen to me much.
I have started the dance a nd meditation, thoroughly enjoying it, greeting out and just being me, I have lost the thoughts of what people think,.
I have decided to make a new life for me just get out join in what I like, and don't expect too much, people are recitative and visa versa, see I was trying to hard before.
As for men I couldn't really careless at the moment, don't get me wrong, but a man cant fix my lifeline to do that, however I guess one day I would like someone to enhance it,
The first time in seven years I see where I am going and I'm happy and enjoying it.
I have found through not being bored or so lonely and critically of one's self, the need for drink and smoking has stopped, I always new that was a trigger, after my birthday I just stopped.