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I am proud of you! Celebrate your AWARENESS! We can not change our many sides of human predicament but we can manage our unique selves...wounds and all! To make open in the light awareness with our shadow sides is empowering!. Forgive yourself! Be kind to yourself and do not let your ego choose shame or regret. A Goddess takes the sh itty hand she's dealt and grows roses! Hug that part of you that craves to LOVE....that is the basic craving in you...you love to love. And you just need to find joy in loving that which loves you back. Love yourself. Choose to be loved. If you can grow from this event it is nothing to regret but a blessing. Spirit says NO REGRETS.....they serve only to attract abusive situations and self loathing. You are a good person and human. Work on healing yourself and then that will spill over to the relationships in your life...the real ones. Spirit says the higher self in you KNEW that man was unavailable and your shadow side finds safety in that......go to that place in you that fears closeness as much as craves it and it will heal your current relationships. It's all good and you are right on path, so yes move forward. Deepak Choprha just started a new 21 day free meditation, start your LOVE journey and join.BLESSINGS!

Thank you, so much, Astra!!! Your reading is so accurate. When we do communicate he always shares pictures of the child and his progress as a new parent. The 10 of wands is so appropriate because this situation is difficult, but we are both trying to work through it. I get from him that he wants to keep me near for when timing is better for us. So the 9 of cups, the wish card, makes sense as well. I can also see where this will be a series of starts and stops. I agree with you that there is a joyful outcome that awaits us. I feel this on a soul level. So once again, thank you for your insight! All the very best to you!

Thank you, WATERGIRL! I have heard this song before, but had never actually listened to the lyrics. How appropriate for my situation! Definitely an addiction, no doubts there. And like every other addiction it took over my life. Maybe the words of the responding posters can be likened to an intervention of sorts. Keeping in that vein, today felt like the 1st day of recovery. The thoughts were less invasive, so there is hope for me! One day at a time. I really do try to find the positives in every situation. I believe in the saying that everyone in your life is there for a season or a reason. Perhaps my mistake was trying to keep him with me longer than his season, and thus he became a reason. Apart from the pain this has caused, it has been an oopportunity for growth. So for that I am grateful!!! Blessings to you as well!!!

You need to fix or else leave your marriage first before deciding whether this other man is right for you. You are using both your husband and your love interest as your back-up plan and that is wrong. If one doesn't work out, you think you can fall back on the other man. This is not about loving someone else but about protecting yourself from being alone. If you really loved this other man, you would know you had to be with him - and only him. You will be less confused when you are single and can see things more clearly. It won't work to try and see if he is interested first before you leave your husband. Or were you just wanting an affair? Put yourself in your love interest's position. Why would he want to be involved with a married woman who offers no signs of commitment or future to him? Show him you are serious by sorting out your marriage issue first. Then maybe he will show an interest.