Appreciate it firefly...well the unexpected happens when I am least expecting it...sooo today is much much better...life usually works itself out..one step at a time..I am taking a day off tomorrow for me...yay...n yes I do need a good novel to enjoy n just escape somewhere...lol..and yes I am going to treat myself to a quiet dinner...I soo need it too...seems like I am just going n going n going..oh n definitely the bubble bath too...n some soothing music..I have some amazing friends...I sure appreciate them when I am in need of help...everything is a gift from the universe...hmm....

thx...for the invite I'll check it out later...waiting to see if it will actually snow or not.

Hello haven't been here in a long time...I need some guidance...I feel like I am not going anywhere in my life..I have my children but they will be on their own here shortly and I feel like I really don't know where to be I mean I have some things I could do but do I stay where I am at or do I move somewhere else to....I don't know...My job I love but not the environment and was wondering if this certain negative person is going to move on soon or ???? Love hmm do I even dare go there..I mean I saw my sigh the one I would love to be with in the spring but I don't know...haven't heard nothing at all sooo that was sort of disappointing..although I am sure that he likes me too he has his own obligations too...I need something to look forward to...sometimes I feel like it just isn't enough anymore..no matter what I do..and I try soo hard and not really going anywhere...oh yeh and what is up with my car? It just breaks down..runs for awhile and then it goes again...their father has promised to keep helping them financially but I doubt it...yesterday I heard some people talking and moving around outside...thought it was the kids even though I knew it wasnt them...anyways didn't mean to go on and on...but seeking some clarity or direction...seems soo lost all of the time and I feel like I haven't found my true purpose in life yet or I am just not seeing it???

I did try to approach him several times but no success...I hate it when you talk to guys and then the next time you see them..they act all somehow..and that was what he did..like he didn't know what to do..well I didn't either but I was all prepared to talk to him but like i said he didn't seem like he was approacable don't know how to explain it exactly..and no I don't think I will be seeing him anytime real soon..sooo oh well..

Good morning: I am wondering about someone that I ran into last week..that I haven't seen since 2009..it was great to see him but when I approached him to say hello..he was blushing so I just keep going..I think we are both too aware of each other now? Anyways we keep running into each other but didn't even say hi..what is the deal with that? I was soo looking forward to seeing him again..but disappointed that we didn't even speak to one another...so what is there to do now..just move on..or??? He is a really nice guy..that I would like to know..better but if it is not possible then I need to just walk away and concentrate on my future...

hello...hmm whom ever is here..lol..wow..been a long time..I hope everybody is doing well as can be or even better..me..more stress than ever at work..working w 2 witches now instead of one..ughh..I swear if its not one thing its another it can never just be..you know?? oh well..if you are out there..I kinda miss this place..

Hi chev..happy for u...and yes I would encourage u to get your ged..u prob won't believe this but my daughter is a sag...sooo I think..ur funn loving n laid back ppl..lol..

saying hello...to the felines....well here goes...I didn't see the aries..boo hoo sooo sad but I did see another hawt guy I haven't seen for awhile n sat by him..the whole weekend but I found out he has twins couple of days before I saw him..but no ring on his finger..soo what does that mean? I dk..but just a few days ago..I found out..this other crush is a scorpio..wow...it explains his intensity at times...the hot/n/cold thing..he does...he's been off n on..I'll jus go back to give a brief history..aug 2009 he was in charge of this event..we went n I saw the aqua n the aries guys there...n so this scorp kinda blew me off so to speak soo I was like ok..no big deal right? I saw him in jan or feb but didn't talk to him altho I really wanted to say hi to him...so I see him in march n he parked in front of me n open his door n looks over..wth?? lmao..he came over shook my hand n said hi..sooo ok..all weekend he stayed close we sat in the same general area which I did for the past several yrs n then he comes n sits there too well...I saw him at the same gas station n same fast food place..but (in my head the voices were telling me this can't work and this is insane) aries n aqua were also there but not nearly as close...well sunday he brings this girl over n(he has tried several times bf to get me jealous my opinion and it hasn't worked) I was totally not kewl w that but I just let it go...so april I see him in nm n he is with her soo I just totally ignored him...n have since then...saw him in august..he was passing out posters but he didn't give me one ok..so no big deal so then he brings this other girl out ag..so ok thats it..never ag..lol..soo two weeks ago he was there but I avoided him big time..I see him sunday as I was making a turn n he rolls down his window n smiles..hahaha u are gonna roll so what do I do trying to concentrate n I hit the curb...lmao...I am sure he knew that I did..so I see him later n he's all trying to say hello but I walked the other...way....gawd...lol..but been dreaming of him since and can't seem to stop thinking of him...then I find out he's a scorpio..but ag he is wayyy too young he told a fren of mine that it didn't matter to him..but....its prob jus mee having issues..w everything as usual...sooo what do u think??? oh n gem contacted me again..etc etc but now he's calling pvt? but I am done with that..for now..or forever I dk..what I am doing..lol...just can't seem to make up mind I guess...l/s ex has been pretty good oops did I say that but he hasn't cussed me out sooo far sooo thats good for him...well...sigh...I am scared that if I don't take this chance w scorp that i won't have that again..sooo....

Good evening..enjoyin the vipers..loved drew n david..yum yum..delectible or edible..hahaha..which ever...huh? kinda had it out with bossy last week...soo far she has been tolerable..ughh...seriously...other than that its been hectic..hi..s/s finally happy for you n your writing..I was gonna try to write something but not now...later..some ghostly experiences? course it would be just basically translating their info..but its my interest right..now...good to see u..l/s..ur sooo funny...wished the bossy was more on a hmmm earthly some kind of plane..

back to s/s it's kinda hmm what am I trying to say here? nways I know two pisces and yeh its all about feelings but we have our differences but we can always come back to the table and reconnect..thats the best about em..pisces they don't stay mad for very long...now to gem..I really don't know b/c I haven't heard from him since that outburst he had..but he is with her soo that is that...I am relieved am out of that now...I really am..it was nice but I would soo much prefer as single single guy not someone whom I feel is playing games..you know..that is not me at all..I tried but just couldn't do...it...I deserve alot more..so its back to animus again...but am also enjoying the free to be me time..until that time that I am able to share it with that special someone..right now..my life is mine...sooo I am not giving up that too easily...but I don't think he is completely out of my life just yet..but I needed the space...I was starting to feel like I couldn't breathe...he was getting wayyyy to close for comfort...I sorta miss him but not really..was I being too mean with him??? i dk...but yeh he has his life and I just don't feel like we were reallyl getting anywhere cuz everything seemed to be on his terms? you know? I couldn't live with myself....sooo thats it...

yep that cat..we changed her name to fatty cuz..that was the other cat's name same exact blue eyes...she will come and lay with me and seems to comfort me when I am drained and or not feeling too well..lol...the others are hell raisers..they love to shred papers..esp paper towels..and get into all kinds of mischief when they are home alone...hahaha they chase each other..jump all over etc ..

H/p keeping them felines entertained...gotta keep em going somehow.yeh pretty soon they will be ordering out for pizza we laugh when we try to imagine what they are saying to each other..lol..crazeee cats..well tgif..tomorrow..ayyyyyyyay see aries couple more days..

well good morning...everybody...where is everyone? hmm welcome virgo's rule...good luck with your cap did know one a long time ago n he seemed well adjusted but sometimes he did get kinda outta hand...lol..have a crush on one now..but I just dk..he is still a crush sooo Its soo hard to deal with mean people..I think virgos abhor mean people..I know I do..why in the world would people be mean just to be mean is beyond me...oh well...its what makes the world go around I guess...hmm ls so is someone deleting the posts I know some of mine didn't show up I think but I just thought hahah they are cyber space some where well have a great day.

yup they do need a deluxe port a loo...they are entertaining cats..oh yeh did I mention that one of the cats looks exactly like a cat I used to have..but someone stole her? I think she was reincarnated..I asked her that n she just stared at me..hahaha..oh my daughter bought them lil outfits to wear and they don't try to take them off..thank goodness lmao jk