Hi Dancealot. Very interesting points you make. I have to say that this relationship definitely has its addictive quality, for both of us. So what you say makes sense. I'm curious as to why you persisted in an 11-year back and forth relationship. Did you guys ever address the issues that would keep you apart or did you "sweep them under the rug", as you say, for a long time? And what were those issues? Was he commitment phobic or was he hurt really bad in a past relationship? From reading other posts of relationships with Taureans, that seems to be a theme with them, that they're extremely sensitive and suffer from past hurts, causing them to be skittish.
This is the issue in my case, by the way. We have talked about the issue several times. He admits this is his pattern, backing away until the woman ends up cheating on him, causing him to be totally commitment phobic. And my pattern is one of holding on too tight when he pulls away, causing us to engage in a back and forth dynamic which affects both of us. Of course, both patterns are caused by lack of self-esteem. We're both aware of that.
We do love each other, which is the foundation that holds us together. We just each need to break our own personal patterns. I need to give more to myself and be more detached and he needs to come forward a little bit and share more. The theory is evident, it's putting it into practice that's challenging. I am learning so much about myself in this process, though.
Thanks for your reply.