Hello gorgeous!!!

sorry for the incomunicado, been goin though some real shit! the worst iswe lost our beloved "Sadie" 11yrs German Short Hair pointer, she was fine then one night my honey called me down to her I circled the wagons and went speeding through the night to a 24 hr Emergency vet. they did tests said surgery would fix her we were jubilent but I knew betterbut hld out hope I was wrong as none of us can ever be 100 percent all the time, we brought her home to heal she did well for 2 days my honey left for work and at 6:21am Sadie (always w/me sleeping w/me always laying on top she weighed 75lbs sorta scrunched up her paw so her nails woke me up again this time worse so my daughter and her freind got sadie in my car and it was on like donkeykong my daughter 2 min out from er hosp vet saud "MOM she's NOT BREATHING"i said yes she is just shallow so i put my hand by her face she liked my hand and nuzzled it we got there and put her on the floor doc came out to find a heart beat but he averted his eyes and I knew she was gone I really didn't care who was in the waiting room and before I knew it I was half on top w/her head on my arm just outta my mind bawling soon I pulled myself together and held the and comforted the the girls my worst thought was how to help my honey he raised her since a pup and the 6/22/00 was anniv of my moms death then I have surgery on july 1st have had streph throat for 10wks no meds will kill it so i am sick as hell. we picked sadies ashes up today and i started to bawl my head off AGAIN! write me w/some good news!

miss you!

Loads of Love & Light!

Marcy

Hi Gorgeous!

It's a date!

Loads of Love & Light

Redwolf

Hey Sweetie Pie!

Hows Life? I am still recovering......yuck...went to my physical therapy today ...OUCH!!!! Having loads of fun w/the psycho ex! He just won't let go....the type of person whom has to "always WIN" and thought I was "less than" the advocary I AM" and have come out "even" I wasn't one of tose ex-wives that feel they need to take "him to the cleaners" I don,t buy into that though God knows what he,s put us through could never be fixed w/any amount of money. Today I find myself very frustrated and alone...depressed all I have ever wanted was a "simple kinda life" w/it's usual bumps in the road, like bills money car issues ect....thats just life. Seems the harder I try to "right my ship" my "balast" is WAAYYYYY OFFF! And if I let go even a wee bit then the preverbial "s_ _ _" hits the fan" I feel I have lived a THOUSAND and one lives at this point sure wish some darn wisdom woulda rubbed off!!! LOL!!!!

UUUUGGGHHH!!!!! I am SICK of constantly going to court, he's a dead beat dad living w/one of the women he cheated on me with, at night I send out into the universe that "they find healing, peace and want to just move on w/their lives" as we are desperatly trying to do. I am a warrior been one since the day I was born (was suppossed to die) but I am 48 now and getting tired . I hope there is an end to all this soon,

I have a lotta health issues, have a pacemaker/defib that keeps my heart beating I have A.R.V.D. untreatable rare mortality rate moderate in the end stages all they can do is a heart transplant hereditary no neither childs showing signs yet they get tested often(got it when I was 36yrs old) Rheumatoid arthritis whole body (grew up on a dairy farm all work by hand) have had 25 major surgeries to date am full of metal, heart, 8 by 10 titanium mesh holding guts in, 7 knee surgeries metal there too! recently my back surgery they basically made me a new low back I blew it out at work I am a Certified Nursing Assistant going for my R.N Registered nursing degree. I LOVE helping to make others comfortable n well I work in a nursing home many that come are there for life.

WHY i am blabbing this I don't know, melencholy maybe I don't feel sorry for myself, but if I do i give myself 5min for the pitty party w/hats n horns and pity party confetti, then it's time to move ON! big difference in feeling "low" than self pitty. UUUGGHH! I musta been a very awful person in my past life! It,s like making some head way and then 6 steps back I am working for and looking forward to the "simple kinda life" I know it's there I sense it see it feel it guess thats what keeps me going, that and my children they are my world! If nothing else I want them to see that no matter what you can get your dream, pull your self up by the boot strap' and no matter what you CAN perserveer!!!!

Loads of LOVE and Light

RedWofe

HEY Markie808,

can or would you communicate w/me via e-mail?

Loads of Love & Light!

RedWolf

Hello markie808,

I don,t understand where my readings went that you gave me I wanted to show them to my fianc'e they are gone. Sorry if I was too much of anything, I am /was glad I found others like me. I live in a small farming town w/devout Catholics! So guess I was just so happy. any way I hope all is well w/you.

Loads of Love & Light!

RedWolf

Hello markie808,

I don,t understand where my readings went that you gave me I wanted to show them to my fianc'e they are gone. Sorry if I was too much of anything, I am /was glad I found others like me. I live in a small farming town w/devout Catholics! So guess I was just so happy. any way I hope all is well w/you.

Loads of Love & Light!

RedWolf

Hello markie808,

I don,t understand where my readings went that you gave me I wanted to show them to my fianc'e they are gone. Sorry if I was too much of anything, I am /was glad I found others like me. I live in a small farming town w/devout Catholics! So guess I was just so happy. any way I hope all is well w/you.

Loads of Love & Light!

RedWolf

Hi Hon!

Yeah....I fee; ;ike a petrie dish the ones they grow germs in!!! LOL!!! BTW I LOVE the new pix you have up very pretty! I did look at your situation again and akk i am getting is that you already know all the answers and what to do, trust yer gut, it will never lead you astray. I personally find that when I "don't listen" is when the hammer drops...usually very hard. Also love, I see you in school for buissness/mngmnt/accounting that line of work, you have a great talent for perfectionism, and that in the buisness worlds a must have don't wait start on some "funding" look at enrollment times don't hold back! And any "nay sayers" please dismiss! It;s YOU'RE LIFE no on elses, but then again I feel ho;ding you back would be like trying to hold down a team of wild horses! ( wink) so go gettem! As for Charlie "keep on keepin' on" he does Love you very much but as you mentioned once bitten twice shy.

Hope this helped but seriously get yer butt in school! you will have time foe ALL you want to acheive and all whom require your loving attention! GREEN LIGHT! GO!!!!!

Loads of Love & Light Charmedwitchbente!!!!!

Alway here for you!

RedWolf

BUMP!!! back attcha (btw not to sound like an idiot, what does that mean?) I hope alls well w/you been sick w/ sinus infection/streph throat it's a party in my body "germ fest 2011"!LOL

Loads of Love & Light to you!

Redwolf