My prayers are to you and your son at this very difficult time... I know when I have had similar moments in my life, I had to tell myself that it is just something trying to test my faith. I believe it is the same for you. Please believe there is something better and bigger for you around the corner as long as you keep your faith strong and your head up and your heart open to better times. It may not seem like it is a doable task but keep your feet moving and take one issue at a time and it will get better. Lots of Love and Light being sent your way.