I have thought about volunteering, but just never get there because I've felt guilty about taking more of the precious little time away from my little boy. I’ve spent a long time putting others’ needs before my own, and as a result his too both directly and indirectly, and I think this is part of my challenge to find balance there. Though I do need a foot in and to meet similar-minded people because I have a vision. And though of course it will be wonderfully fulfilling to be involved in the field to an extent, I also need flexibility and sufficient distance to oversee the big picture through to fruition – there are many branches – and the writing is linked and will follow on from it all. A psychic told me last year that I had to leave my job in order to get anywhere on the new chapter because it was too draining on me, and that I must do so around April this year, which is perhaps what is stressing me out. It made sense because it really was sucking the life out of me, but I’m feeling better after a holiday and plus it’s less busy at the moment – so right now it seems a reckless move. But I know that in 6 months it’ll come around again, so I do need to start extricating myself. Do you get a sense with regard to timing at all?
I acknowledge that a lot of my hesitance stems from fear of failure due to self doubt - it's plagued me a lot in my life for no justifiable reason - I wish I knew! But I identify with a lot of what you said so feel happier with reinforced knowledge, that it’s just a matter of time till my resolve is strong enough to take that leap of faith. I think my motive is pure – so hopefully at least basic money will follow.
Thank you so much for your time. I really do appreciate it.