Thank you to both of you Feangelikah and Capricorn444.
@ Feangelikah- I am working on an annulment and he knows that. It will be over by early this year. Yes, I think he is from a village and he says if he goes with me, he will have to run away from his family and probably become an outcast. I just can't believe I can't do anything I'm used to fighting for what I believe in. I feel so helpless. I don't see myself in a tomorrow without him. I know this may sound cliche but really...I know even if it is 2011 there are still traditions and faith like that especially in India where he is from. So hard Feangelikah...I have been through a lot of tough times in my life but losing him to somebody he doesnt even know is too hard to bear.
@ Capricorn444 - He is going to be 30 this May . His parents are finding a girl from him because since his culture is different, he never told them about me. I am 9 years older than him, have 2 kids and my marriage is due to be annuled soon. I told him that he should decide on his own but it seems that in their family and society it is different from what we usually are used to. I don't know what to do...it is so hard to see him with another person. It is so cruel that his parents are running his life and playing God. It is his life anyway. He went home for a vacation and I told him not to go because once he is there, his family will force him more. But he told me he will say no and fight for us. He told me he spoke abou tme to his parents and his parents refused me. But why do we have to feel this feeling called love when we won't base our future on that? With all due respect to faith and tradition, this is just tearing me apart too much. In all 3 years I was waiting for him to tell me that we will go somewhere else and love together but those talks about working in another country where we can be together were always suggested by me. And just last month he told me that they were starting to make a search for a girl to marry. I wanted the ground I was standing to just eat me up. Terrible. Really terrible.
Thanks to both of you for giving me an audience. I am so lost. So lost.