Hi - I'm new here
I have been with a Pisces man (45y.o.) now, for almost 8 years. He has 3 growing children that I get along very good with. WE met online after I dated in a short time 4 different men from the same online service, I use to meet in public places, either a restaurant or a big 'State Park". When I met Mr. G - I knew we had something incredible, we clicked in emails/phone and we met after 1 mo' we connected easily. He is a Pisces man 2-24 and I am a Taurus 4-24 and 5 years older than him, which we don't really notice.
My question is when we fight/argue over anything trivial I always feel I have to have the last word.
I came from a Sexually Abusive Childhood from very young and almost daily. My mom was a very passive woman and knew, it was happening by my birth dad. I finely went to the police and they arrested him, when I was 16Teen, I was scared but did it and I'm glad. I feel our Childhood patterns and ways of thinking reflect our future and how we handle life and issues in it. We love each other daily, Mr. P is easy to talk and be with and he has lived with me since the 2nd. mo' we started dating. I believed in my heart and never regretted. He had alcohol issues that I wanted to be away from, since I was married 19 yrs. total to a man name I'll call "JIM" and he was an Alcoholic and we Divorced in 1985 but, remarried after I ran into money I thought would be our answer to happiness and it did not matter... We fell into problems to deal with and eventually after 13 years I knew I had to leave for the benefits of our daughters (then 11 and 12 y.o. ) I Divorced him for good and we remained FRIENDS, but he wanted Friends with Benefits and I did not.. after awhile I started dating online, and a few close friends... When I met Mr. G. I knew we were strongly connected, we felt it... and our conversations and laughs we terrific. We have a lot in common and I do find to give him space, being a Pisces is the answer but, when he ready he comes to me to talk or get lovey dove y...
He came from a loving home that doesn't show love, except to be there when needed, not physically. Does that make sense to you who is reading and knowing this.
This Pisces man Mr. G and I have spoken of marriage, but being close to my early 50's I feel why marry... WE have not but have spoken of it, he want to have the money to do it his way... I feel him being a Pisces also means "HE ALWAYS WANTS TO BE RIGHT" and I feel kinda' stupid around him at times, and have told him. I have a mind and brain and I want to continue sharing, but he feels his smarts outweighs mine, does that sound familiar? to YOU!?
I am a Taurus and strong and determined and I don't give up easy... I don't know what my Sun is or his... I think he told me once his is in Mars...
Will we end up getting married and really bonding this long relationship, I wonder. Also, should we stay together? I am not working right now, I was let go because of lies and am on Unemployment, I wonder if you feel or see a job and what type of job coming into my future and how soon? I use to be a School Bus Driver for 12yrs... I help Mr. G sell his Tube Amps that he is a Master Artist with, for Guitars/etc. He also is a Computer Technician and sets up Meetings, very smart man. We fish a lot together and love it and we Cool together and so much more.. Friends come and go around us and we are fine with that... I have a few close friends! and he has his workers as a few friends.
P.S. WE live with my "emotionally" mentally challenged 30 y.o. daughter and will till her Assisted living program starts, she goes to a Day Program to keep her stable and liable in sharing herself with others and still learning daily.