Thank you so much for replying to me. I will share more so you can paint a picture. As far as my financial standings are concerned they are not that bad. I pay my bills but have lost a lot in my divorce and my credit not that strong due to my ex. I have helped my Leo to the tune of over two thousand dollars over the past year. she has paid back some here and there. Now it is around fifteen hundred and i have even put her on my phone plan because she has not established credit. Here ex (a really hateful Libra) has been controlling and dominate over this point in their relationship. Now for the record we have not officially dated since July but she still told me she loved me and all that up to a few weeks ago. she trusts me with her youngest son to take him places and do things with him with out her and i am very attached to all her children. She has told when she lets her guard down that she does love me but then the walls go back up. She knows that I am here for and treat very well on many levels but it is like she is waiting for me to disappoint her so she can go "see you are just like the others". She tells me to date other people then tells that she is scared that she may loose the best thing she ever had. I know that I can provide for her and her family because I continually do it. while taking care of my own responsibilities too. she tells me I put her on a pedestal but I tell her i am giving her what she deserves. My children adore her and I would not let her in their life if I had reservations. We have a compatibility beyond the mere physical attraction.
I do have my faults like everyone else and strive hard to over come and correct them. I have never felt this way for any woman and it is killing me at the same time. I do the little things like rub her feet and back after a long day. If I am over at her house I will do the dishes without being asked. Ill do things for her that I never did before in other relationships because I want to do them for her and not that I have to be asked. All the different signals are confusing to me and I don't want to loose her but cant watch her fail either. I always have told her that I will be there and have promised to be there. She calls me her best friend over her female friends and anyone else. Then tells me to take my heart back even though she has it. I know she is talking (not dating per her words) someone and they communicate constantly. I have some trust issues that I am over coming from my past but cant seem to get her out of my head and heart. People tell us that we make a great couple and I truly believe that. I have become totally transparent and vulnerable to her and it scares the life out of me.
I have never wanted more from someone but she tells she doesn't deserve me and that I am to good to her. I really do love this woman and I hurt so much for her. I told her last night that she was a priority in my life and she she doesn't want that. But how can I keep from being that when I care for her and take care of her when she comes to because not else will help. I have seen her at her worse and weakest and have not judged but cant seem to make headway back to her heart where I used to be.
Please help anyway you can, I do appreciate your time and correspondence.