Thank you blmoon... I was actually on the verge of stop talking to him before i read your last message. Another drama blew up.. well i was at fault cause said i'd give him some space to solve something out. and i was actually just saying that because he's being passive this entire time and i'll leave him alone to that. and he's gone mad.
M : you know, you used to be a lot less dramatic.
M : what happened?
because i just want something real. the way you behave doesn't match with what u said u wanted. but it's okay, i know u must have lots of thoughts in your mind, that's why i'll give u space. i cannot wear my heart on my sleeves everytime, i wouldn't have gone this far if i wasnt real about this.
M : I'M FUCKING PLAYING XBOX
M : WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?
M : you know what...
M : just fucking leave me alone
M : i'm tired of this shit.
M: you are such a goddamn drama queen
u asked me question
M : go back and read the fucking conversation
M : what the fuck is that supposed to mean?
noo i was referring to what u've been acting...
M : yea
M : anyway
M : i don't need the drama
M : and it seems like you can't stop
M : i fucking had you over to my house last night and cooked you dinner.
M : so don't talk about how I'M acting.
M : so on that note...
M: why don't you go figure something out for yourself.
M : instead of trying to make me feel like an asshole.
M : anyway
M : i guess you'redone
M : done
M : as am i.
You didn’t give me answer when I’m trying to solve the problem. I told you I agree to take things slow but u gotta understand it takes two to repair something.. You gotta give to get that changes.
M : and i told you (while we were still dating) that i'm sick and fucking tired of "talking about it"
M : there's nothing else to talk about.
M : that's all we fucking do
M : i told you
M : if anything happens
M: it's going to happen naturally
M : it's not going to happen by you asking me what our status is... (I never asked about our status not once...) or fucking pressuring me in to saying something i'm not ready to say
M : and you can't see to get that fact.
M : anyway...
M: i dunno what to say
i am not pressuring you to get abck with me.
M : i'm not talking about it anymore
M : i'm sick of you making me feel like shit.
M : i told you where i am
M : and if you can't accept that...
M : it's your own problem
M: not mine
okay.. im sorry if i make u feel like that.
M : well i can't even count how many times i've told u that.
M : so i dunno what to tell you
M : except i'm SICK of having this same conversation over and over and over and over
okay then stop..
M : ha
M : is this the part where you just start some off-topic sentence
M : like "how was work today"
M : do you know how many times we have said this exact same thing??
hey.. calm down..
M : i'm sick of it
M: you obviously don't get it.
M : yea i think we just shouldn't talk anymore.
M : i really don't think this is going to happen
M : if you can be at all interested in trying things again
M: and act like you just acted
M : and not apologize.
M : then there's a problem
M: guess you don't have any intention.
I totally ignored him now. I'm tired. He texted me"What's our problem?" Didn't reply.
We met on sunday, he texted me to meet up but i was up until 2pm, watching football until 4am. He's being suspicious if i were in the club or was not even home at all watching the game with a guy. We got through it. We met. It was okay at first, then after dinner his mood gone down again, he acted distant and aloof. I returned his coldness with caring and gentle move.
Then today that happened. So I'm done blmoon... I'm not gonna try to contact him anymore. Like u said, I'm gonna wipe him out of my mind. He definitely doesn't want that change. So if he really loves me and wants me, he should make his move. I've done my part.
What makes me really mad is that he doesn't show respect at all to me or at least appreciate my effort. Maybe i was at fault again for doing the things i did. I was just doing those things because i am being sincere and genuine about it.
Thank you blmoon...