Hi, I am not a certified psychic, but my heart goes out to you in your grief and struggle. I had 2 miscarriages, and shortly thereafter my husband abandoned our marriage. I was so hurt that I didn't think about having other children. As time went on and I recovered, I engaged in meditation and came to understand that there were several personal reasons why I should not be a conventional mother in this lifetime. Later, I had an experience where my children (turns out there were 4) communicated to me that they were watching over me. Even later, I realized that they were moving on to their next incarnations. It was a good experience, to understand that no effort is lost in this lifetime, and that life truly is eternal, existing in either a manifest or latent state.

My sense is that you have been pushing yourself very hard. Your comment, "...I had a healthy baby boy, but by C-section", has the sound that you are judging yourself, holding your experience up to what is perhaps an unattainable standard. You are very, very fortunate to have a healthy child. It is very important that you are able to feel gratitude and appreciation for the fortune that you do have in your life. It is not necessary to meet any standard or goal about the number of children you have. You must be strong and healthy to have been able to endure 4 pregnancies. But, child bearing is difficult and can be dangerous. You must take care of your physical and spiritual health. It is also important that you let your son know his value. You do not want him to grow up believing that you wanted more children because he is inadequate, that he was not able to fulfill your needs.

Please just rest for now. Allow your body to recover. Get good nutrition and lots of rest. If you have a religion, study to deepen your faith. If you do not, seek out some practice or meditation that makes you feel spiritually complete. Your life is a treasure, just as it is. I wish you future happiness and fulfillment.

I believe what I have read, and what I have observed and experienced from Scorpio men I have known: they are emotional, willfull, and they play by their own rules. Lots of men cheat, and play the rude manipulation game of staring at other women in front of the one they're with. That's just the downside of a man with a low life condition. But Scorpio men are renowned for their self-control, so if they're behaving badly they're doing it for a reason. The problem is, their emotions are so intense that they sometimes hide them even from themselves. The thing I respect about them the most is their honesty. If you ask them, and they trust you, and you have the courage to take the answer, a Scorpio man will tell you what's on his mind. Often, the truth will hurt, but you have your answer. But you have to be ready to be honest with yourself. If you're afraid of what he will say, don't ask. But if you think he's changed his mind about the relationship or about marrying you, face up to your fears and approach him with an open heart. He will tell you yes or no. Then either way, you can move forward.

I am thankful for the friends I've made in my new home, who have given me a sense of mission and reason to stay!

I think baebae and wubbledoo are both right. Scorpio men do exactly what they want to do. They also are found of playing games of various kinds. Ever watched a cat toy with a mouse? In a relationship with him, you must look at yourself, and ask and answer the hard questions - if he offering me what I really want and need? Am I being manipulated? Is what he's offering me worth the price? Am I happy?

A Scorpio man can teach you how to be a strong woman, if you're willing to learn the lessons. But unless you're a masochist, you'll want to make sure the contract offers you some solid benefits, before you sign away your soul.

If it turns out he's not the one, cheer up - it will hurt for a good long while, but it won't destroy you, and you'll survive to love again. Best wishes.

I think a Cancer man would be most likely to waver, and be reluctant to give up contact with you completely - unless or until they decide on someone else! I mean, why should he give up on you when he doesn't have something better (yet)? Cancers want security. Better to have a possible relationship than go out in the cold hard world with nothing in his back pocket. Be forewarned - that doesn't mean he's willing to settle if he isn't sure. If a Cancer man decides you're the one, he'll find a way to let you know! If he doesn't, feel free to move on and be HIS friend while you keep looking. Good luck to you!