@daliolite still here, glad that the forum is up again

1st of all Happy New year everyone.

Its so good to see that almost everyone is still on the site after all that annoying spam.

What brings me here today is a serious health problem, last November I did a complete pulmonary embolism, almost died and stayed in hospital for a month, came home with my lungs completely clean. No one knows how this happened, where this came from coz the previous blood tests I did in 2014 for genetic markers came negative. I'm taking a blood thinner (Xarelto)and another med to protect my stomach and intestines from bleeding, if another medication is needed I always need to ask the cardiologist if I can take it. This thing really took over me, I'm 41, finally my life was getting on track, had a lot of plans for 2018, and now I'm loosing a lot of work trainings overseas coz I can't fly, lots of leg pains that scare me a lot coz it might be another clot, my left side muscles are chaotic, sometimes my teeth and face gets numb, coz of this I did 2 panic attacks and now I'm depending on others to drive me to work and I'm afraid of being alone.

Can anyone tell me how long it will take to get my life back? I wish this anxiety would go away with this left numbness, it's driving me insane. The psychiatrist wants me to take anti- depressive, the cardio gave me the okay but I need to be very watchful for bleeds.this is so stressful.

Thank you for hearing me, I do need to get my life back.

@hekatesxing thank you, I can relate to the reading. My prob was a pulmonary embolism and I'm on blood thinners which doesn't allow me to take anything before consulting a doc first due the risk of doing an hemorrhage, that's why I'm in constant pain coz I have back probs. this Wednesday the doc will finally tell me if I have to take the blood thinners for the rest of my life.

@jodomi Hi, wow very accurate when it comes to the pain, it's my left side that constantly hurts or gives me a numb feeling. Last year I had a full pulmonary embolism its a miracle that I'm alive and none of the docs I've seen so far knows how I did this. I took blood thinners for 9 months, after being tested the doc decided that I no longer need them, only if I have to travel by plane. I was really happy til my leg started hurting, and this can be a sign of another blood clot, which took me to the emergency room again, doc say it's an inflammation. I'm trying to see another doc a specialist on bones and muscles, because the pains give me panic attacks and I'm always agitated, nervous. So I do hope and pray for your prediction to be right. Bout red roses so far nothing, unless is the ones I have planted in my garden. Thank you so much

@hekatesxing Hi I would like a reading please. My question is related to my health, I've been thru medication adjustments and lots of exams, I'm tired of being in pain and feeling anxious. What is needed for me to know to get better? Thank you

@dancervibes06 Hi, I apologize for the late reply, it's been 6 months. I was not in a good place, and now I can honestly give you a feed back. My arm has improved, but my shoulder is still frozen, so I still struggle with some movement and pain, but it is much better. I stayed with my old therapist. Everyone who saw me in the medical field said that this takes 1 year to 2 years, to be completely healed.
As for my job, I made a complaint to our boss, he said that the three of us, were going to sit down and talk. I started thinking and realized that he mentioned that he was previously involved, and was aware of why I was on sick leave, and asked me if her attitude had changed, which it hadn't, the harassment was back. So I gathered all the threats she made to me, and filed a complaint against her with HR, after this I went directly to our main chain of command, because they took this to a higher level, and my new chain of command was not fully aware of the problem, by doing this I minimized their bad impression I might leave on them about me. He talked to her, put someone between us; even our boss, has to go to the mediator first before asking me for anything, because he didn't take any action.
Anyway, I still have to file a complaint to make it official through another channel, to make sure this never happens again, because in the end she is still my supervisor, and now she wants me to do things that are not in my job description, that I will see if they can do a review and I get a raise. If not, she can do it herself.
Thanks again for your time, and the lovely reading.

@dancervibes06 Hi, I apologize for the late reply, it's been 6 months. I was not in a good place, and now I can honestly give you a feed back. My arm has improved, but my shoulder is still frozen, so I still struggle with some movement and pain, but it is much better. I stayed with my old therapist. Everyone who saw me in the medical field said that this takes 1 year to 2 years, to be completely healed.
As for my job, I made a complaint to our boss, he said that the three of us, were going to sit down and talk. I started thinking and realized that he mentioned that he was previously involved, and was aware of why I was on sick leave, and asked me if her attitude had changed, which it hadn't, the harassment was back. So I gathered all the threats she made to me, and filed a complaint against her with HR, after this I went directly to our main chain of command, because they took this to a higher level, and my new chain of command was not fully aware of the problem, by doing this I minimized their bad impression I might leave on them about me. He talked to her, put someone between us; even our boss, has to go to the mediator first before asking me for anything, because he didn't take any action.
Anyway, I still have to file a complaint to make it official through another channel, to make sure this never happens again, because in the end she is still my supervisor, and now she wants me to do things that are not in my job description, that I will see if they can do a review and I get a raise. If not, she can do it herself.
Thanks again for your time, and the lovely reading.

@dancervibes06 Hi, I would love a reading, my main focus is my health. I fell into exhaustion, due stress and bullying at work and ended up with problems on my left shoulder, they call it a tendinites and my muscle is shrinking, nothing I do works. I can't move my arm freely and without excruciating pain. I'm currently waiting to be called for hospital therapy and I'm on stress leave due the bullying at work, I could not handle it anymore. So, I'm torn between on what to do, because it's very hard for me to drive and I'm on pills. There is this therapist (Sophia) that I have heard of that has fixed a friend's arm with the same problem, and I have my therapist/ friend (Hélia), but lately it seems that she's not committed and I need a constant effective treatment, at least until the hospital calls, this treatment is not cheap too.
What is the cards advice on this?
How long til I can move my arm, maybe it is a silly question; pretty soon I'll have to go back to work and all the stress will come back again. Thank you for the offering.

@Selenite 2-Yes theres was a lot of things missing, which i'm gratefull that finally someone took the reins and are obligating others to do their work as it should be.
3-Yes we are a section divided in 3 teams, I process, review and close work for o shops to work on, 2team creates work and plans jobs for the shops to do and the 3rd team uploads all the costs and orders the needed material to accomplish work. I got stuck in the middle because no one listened to me, and they kept pretend that i said nothing, they would tell me "yes I'll do and behind my back: "screw her". So i need the shops and the 3rd team to have their work done so mine can be closed.
4-There are at least 2 people that have issues with me, one because I "interfered" in her affair with a co-worker which wife is my friend ( i  warned the husband about the nasty rumors that were spreading  at work); the other is because she wants my position, but doiesnt even care on knowing on how to do her job well, I end up supervising her job and theres another one that is the  manager, that occupies a position that knows nothing about and it is almost sunking the ship and im afraid that if this continues we might get fired one day. And now,  from what im seeing, my direct supervisor is doing my manager work the way she feels better, but she is really rude.
5- I did not made a mistake or tried to hide it, anyone can see what I do, it's simple; we work in a system that anyone can see what the other is doing, who did it, when, etc My mistake was doing what the manager told me to do and trusting in the wrong people.
7- you see a hidden agenda, yes you are right, but it is something that it is exclusively  included in my job description, to be done only by me, I'm the only one paid to do it, no one else is, and I keep it mine, because i dont want anyone to screw it like it happened before, when I thought my co-worker could do it, now my direct supervisor wants me to teach her,but i won't, im not paid to teach anyone and, what i do, is taught in the manuals and theres also training on line, but they dont want to study.
9-I'm reviewing every thing just in case, theres nothing in there that i didnt do , unless I have received orders not to. I'm not seeing what doc is on hold but, if it is what I'm suspecting it's not in my job description to do it.
I do hope you are right, but its not what Im seeing or feeling, I feel like Im being hunted or if they want to put me aside.
After 20 years of service this sucks. Please if you see anything else just let me know.
Thank you @Selenite

@Selenite, I Selenite, if you are still giving readings I'm in need of one, I'm a female, dob 18/3/76 . My question is about work. I work for a foreigner company that is run by the two nations due this I'm constantly changing supervisor, for about 5 years I've been struggling with bad local leadership but I managed to cope with it all, because the previous foreigner supervisors saw my work, saw the difficulties and understand where we were. Recently I received a new supervisor, we kinda get along but I've always been suspicious that something would happen ( gut feeling, that not all that shines is gold). We had a disagreement 3 weeks ago, all started because my work depends on others and I wanted to wrap up everything for the end of the fiscal year, a lot that was hidden came up to the surface, in my defense I just pointed out that I needed that done asap so I could close our part. She didn't like it, so she started hunting everyone down. I was busy as hell and she kept asking and asking for other things when I had inform her that I was going to shut off for the last 2 weeks of September for end of FY purposes. Our disagreement, was about some rules that are written in our playbooks ( she said it was written I said: "not exactly in those words"), I disagreed because the playbook by it self is insufficient, they have other extra manuals,webinars stuff like this that it took me a lot of time to read and watch; resuming she emailed me, which I answer that I would take a list as soon as I could to review the work she asked me to change, but this in my point of view wasn't a priority, what I was doing was but she didn't care. So she came into my office, with all she wanting me to change printed, demanding that I would change it, I stopped what I was doing and look at it and said, I can't, these are things that are still waiting for a decision but of course there were a few ones that weren't because the other sections asked me not to do anything about it until further notice ( I did what they asked); after saying I couldn't, she told me to show her were was it in the playbook like if I was lying, then threaten me saying it was going to happen any way, like if this was mine, then told me if I couldn't handle it to go home. Which I reply I don't need to go home, and suit yourself. I took leave coz I was exhausted, I came back to work and I'm being treated like if I was a plague.
She extended her staying, so she will be my supervisor for two years, what I do wanna know is what the heck happened? what might be the outcome in a few months, what can I do to change this? I just disagreed with someone, I didn't said I wasn't going to do the work, she changed the way of doing things like the regulations say, just to please the management, I don't know what to do, all my life I had good references, awards, and, now this? I even considered in staying home coz my nervous system is taking a toll on me. Sorry for the long texting, but this is what I know it happened and I'm not being capable of dealing with this. Thank you

@blmoon Thanks for the reply, yes I do need to consider and look for foods and supplements that can make my blood thinner without making me suffer from something else. I ended to have to go to a cardiovascular doc. coz I need compression stockings for plane traveling, result: I found out that at the hospital he didn't do a complete exam he just checked the arteries that was what they asked him, so from now on he wants me to use the socks during the day til our next appointment in November it's when it makes a year since the incident. I work in a desk and "due the pain in my left side that no one knows what this is" I can't exercise coz it Hurst, feels like my heart is being crushed and my left arm numbs and hurts too, due that I did two serious panic attacks, since I came back from the hospital I found out that my thyroid is unbalanced, lack of folic acid and D, low B12. I'm trying to get all this levelled. Plus the hospital addicted me on benzodiazepines, and guess what my anxiety attacks got worse, im recently on vacation and I notice that I'm feeling worse and can't function. Went to a shrink she prescribed Cymbaltha which is very good but addictive and can ruin a person's life, I complain about it and she was very rude by saying I should do what the manual say. Wow... this is the docs we have. Anyway I'm very confident that this was one time only incident, but I'm also very aware that I have a serious anxiety problem that needs to be taken care of or it will destroy my life and I honestly don't know what to do I'm completely lost.
I do wish that everything goes well with your hubby, a friend of mine just did that and went very well. And wow u are an amazing woman, I wish you all the best in the world.

@jodomi Hi, wow very accurate when it comes to the pain, it's my left side that constantly hurts or gives me a numb feeling. Last year I had a full pulmonary embolism its a miracle that I'm alive and none of the docs I've seen so far knows how I did this. I took blood thinners for 9 months, after being tested the doc decided that I no longer need them, only if I have to travel by plane. I was really happy til my leg started hurting, and this can be a sign of another blood clot, which took me to the emergency room again, doc say it's an inflammation. I'm trying to see another doc a specialist on bones and muscles, because the pains give me panic attacks and I'm always agitated, nervous. So I do hope and pray for your prediction to be right. Bout red roses so far nothing, unless is the ones I have planted in my garden. Thank you so much

Yes I would love a reading. My main focus right now is my health but anything is welcome. thanks

Hi sweetie, hope all is well. We talked a while ago when I posted about my health issue, full pulmonary embolism. I recently went to a blood clot specialist, we did a genetic study and ultrasound, all came back okay and negative, except for the carotid ultrasound saying I have a kiking carotid, such is not a problem too, they think I was born with it or did a traumatic event in my younger days. Anyway the doc and I trust her, don't ask my why, she took my off the meds, no aspirin too, nothing. She said this might have been a one time thing. The only problem is that to travel I'll have to inject myself and walk in the plain. Eat well, exercise no more risky behavior, which means no pregnancy too. Guess I'll never be a mom. The thing is, I'm so scared, because now my legs are hurting, went to the hospital the blood levels are okay and no one can figure exactly what it is, I'm taking antiinflammatorie and doesn't go away. My cousin which is nurse say I shouldn't have stop the medication coz the chances of doing another blood cloth are huge. I'm constantly agitated and aware of my pains, scared that could be another clot. I'm doing anxiety attacks too. What do you think? I can't think straight coz since the beginning I had a strong feeling that this would go away but now I see myself trapped in my own fears, I don't want to shut myself from the world and I'm already afraid of doing things on my own.
Know you are busy, no rush and I do appreciate your time. Thank you

@hekatesxing thank you, I can relate to the reading. My prob was a pulmonary embolism and I'm on blood thinners which doesn't allow me to take anything before consulting a doc first due the risk of doing an hemorrhage, that's why I'm in constant pain coz I have back probs. this Wednesday the doc will finally tell me if I have to take the blood thinners for the rest of my life.

@hekatesxing Hi I would like a reading please. My question is related to my health, I've been thru medication adjustments and lots of exams, I'm tired of being in pain and feeling anxious. What is needed for me to know to get better? Thank you