Thank-you so very much Hans,as i read your reply i first got chill's then i started to cry,
not because i was sad,no-no,but because everything that you wrote is right on and you made me open my eyes to see something's that i needed to see and now i understand better.
the cards at first scared me but now i'm more at ease.
i just got 4 new relaxing c.d.'s today,to help me with medataion,and i'm gonna try real hard to go inside myself.
your right,i was afraid to tell my boyfriend about my gift,now i just have,i'm not sure how he feels about it but he's alway's listened when i had a bad feeling about something.never to second guess what i was saying to him at the time,like some how he just knew.
thank-you for your advice on the tarot cards,i will look for the right ones on friday as i'm also going to get some sage to do a cleansing of myself and apartment.
yes i have been going through alot of fiancial up's and down's since i lost my job a year ago,and i have alot of stress wondering if its ever gonna even out again to be better fiancially?
but then again thats the million dollar question for so many people these day's.
change,hum,lets see,i was all ready to relocate just back in sept.,gave up the trailer i was renting,carefully packed everthing,took my animals to the vet for one last check-up and i went to my doc. for a check-up too.i even got a GPS.
we were supose to be moving from florida to missippi to where some of my family lives,but the last thing to do was have my truck serviced,well my friend that was doing the work on it ran into some problems with the breaks,so we had to leave the trailer and my friend and his wife invited us to stay with them,which we did and then i felt that moving to missi.was not a good idea,so we was lucky enough to get this apartment.
but for so reason i still feel that we are gonna make another move,even though i like where i'm at right now.
and i'm starting to feel that it might be time to try and get another job,i think that i'm recovered from an wrist injury to try and work again, i just am not sure what kind of work to look into doing?
what did it mean to accept that i'm alone,when there is usally people around me,and i have faith that God is always with me?
your right,i'm not satisfied with myself.
and i do feel satisfied when people appreciate me,maybe because for years i felt that i was not appreciated at all.
i do have a beautiful amyathist stone,it came from hawii.and it was giving to me years ago from a very dear friend.
a few months ago i had it in cased in a nice silver cage.
i've always thought it was vauable because of where it came from and its size is pretty big.
the few people i asked to tell me how much they thought it was worth,said that it was beautiful,a nice cut,a nice color but that amyathist prices was way low and that they would only give me one hundred dollars for it.i know its worth way more than that.
and your right,i'm not gonna just sell it to just any body,the person will have to apprecciate it or i will never part with it.
i think i need to start valuing my own opinons and appreciating myself for a change.
you have helped me so much,thank-you again,your insight is truely amazing and you are a beautiful person.
Peace & Blessings