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Happy holidays to you Astra....hope all is well !

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Hi Astra...aside from wanting answers to the questions I aked above, I wanted to let you know that I think I know part of the reason he runs from me...and its not the fact that he had an affair and lied...our connection was one where his soul lay bare to me...he couldnt hide secrets without me "feeling" them, and that bothered him. Hes also very self destructive (i.e. drugs and sex abuse) When we broke up I openly admit I commited the carninal sin in his eyes...i turned to his parents for help and informed them of all the things he was doing hoping for an intervention...he naturally, being very manipulative, convinced them that I was not only crazy, but saying those things because he had left me. Ironically, after I left, he went deeper and deeper into his addictions which resulted in him becoming an adult film star, and abusing drugs so bad he couldnt funtion...in fact he landed up in rehab and has now been sober for a year...but i think he blames me because it wasnt until i was out of his life that he sank to such despair...i honestly think he went that way to try and erase me from his memory...and to prove to ME that he wasnt good enough. I agree with your readings about how life is weighing on him...and even though he claims hes happy, I feel what youre seeing is more acurate....he works 3 jobs, his friends appear to be superficial and pretentious, he is indeed struggling financially....I for one know firsthand he is much deeper than that...so i would like you to look again to see if you can get a grasp on what exactly it is that repels him away from me....I have exes in my life...i might think of them occassionally, but im not obsessed the way i am with him...its almost like i feel him pulling on me if that makes sense......im just looking for opinions.....thank you so much.....

Rick

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watergirl...interesting

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Hi Astra....I just want to comment on some of the other posts that you have been answering...Ive read some of your responses to people, such as SadSag, and they are utterly heartwrenching , soulful and insightful. You truly are a beautiful soul and my prayers go out to you. So many times people "dont get it"...but you clearly do. I understand that there are many here that require your services and that you may not get to me or my issues, but I stand by my offer to read for you soon. You truly are an enlightened one and it would be my honor. Thank you again for providing such a valuable service to those in need.

Rick