July 10, 1967
Being a Cancer is very challenging. Some days are great and some really suck. As a Cancer I feel as though I have struggled all my life. It seems like I understand everyone and No one understands me. I'm always there for people and when I really truely need someone there for me, they are not. I married a Leo and it's been the biggest mistake of my life. We are both leader personalities but as a Cancer I am the submissive one. He has bullied and bulldozed right over me. I am currently in the process of getting a divorce and I can hardly wait to be free. I know that there is someone out there for me who will understand me and take the time to find out what a Cancer is all about.
Right now I am in my discovery phase. I am figuring out who I am and what I need and want out of life. I care too much what people think about me and it has really paralized me and sapped my self confidence. I've been way too hard on myself. I need to learn to let go, take chances and know that no matter... I will be okay. Reading this forum reminds me that I am not alone, there are others going through the same emotional turmoil.
I tend to find or maybe they find me, people who are very needy. I love to help but it has to be on my terms. I end up giving so much... that without my down time it really drains me emotionally. People think I'm nosy when I ask a bunch of questions, but it's just the way I try to figure out how to be helpful.
I'm a mix when it comes to interaction. I can party all night, full moons are my wild nights. I definately fill the pull. Those are the nights that I'm most likely to let my hair down. On the other hand, I love my domain. It is where I reflect about the past, present and future.
Right now I am land locked and I hate it. I grew up on the West Coast in California and I miss the ocean so... much. Being where I am and with whom I am with has really taken it's toll on my psyche. My creativity has almost vanished and I am rarely happy. Thank Heaven's for my postive side that just won't let me give up. My future is going to shine. I can feel it. I just need to get past this last hurtle and all will start to fall into place. Of course - not without a lot of hard work on my end. lol
Being a Cancer is a love/hate relationship with one's self. I'm working on getting the latter emotion out of the equation. I am a good person and I do deserve to be treated so.