Thank you for your beautiful words!
The co-chair of the program answered me back earlier today! She would be willing to meet for an hour in two weeks. I'm glad she's taking some her time to help me. But on the other hand, I'm not sure of what I could ask her. I have to come with a plan ... : /
I sent you an email. Did you read it?
"You know what I figured just now? That there is more than one way to help, to heal, people.
Psychologist, therapist, even entering in the political sphere can enable you to help people."
Psychology would interest me, but in order to practice as a clinical psychologist, a phD is required. Places are very limited so I would need to get an incredibly high GPA. Politics isn't something that appeals to me... Maybe I have to accept that I will never feel fulfilled professionally.
"Ninii, pick up what you have right now. I know you haven't lost everything. You only think,feel you have."
I have to wait for answers, and then I'll be able to make a decision. (if I get accepted)
"You've even told me " We're young" as encouragement. Now I can only give you the same: We're young, YOU'RE YOUNG; this isn't the last of anything. If you truly want it than don't let this bethe ending to this chapter"
We have our entire life to find love. Education, having a degree... Yes, we can go back at school at any time, but learning and school commitment get harder as we get older , There're so many unexpected events that can happen during a lifetime such as birth, depression, money issues, ...
If I forget about OT, I can't keep that hope that I will be able to comeback in few years. Realistically chances that it would happen are very, very tiny. I'd like to discuss with my co-chair, since she doesn't have a typical professional path, but I think she just doesn't want to see me!
Thank you so much, EIAI. You're truly helping me. You're open to dialogue, and that's really helping me since it gives me a different perspective. 
"What was your original intent for going to college for? Was it simply to leave your home?"
University was just the next step. It wasn't like I wanted to do something else than being at school. I was accepted in a very prestigious university, so I thought I could take that chance (or risk).
That's true: things were moving too fast. But it's not like I've been moving at all ; I'm now starting over. I lost time and money and energy... everything.
"You have a gift for healing, and I don't doubt it. The Nature card presents itself as you once again. Here I think it shows you still detached. Maybe you don't have a passion, but perhaps it's because once again you decided rapidly on what you were going to do. This card actually acknowledges nursing, or in another healing profession for you to follow. They even suggest that you try how you do with animals (veterinary or the like) and plants. Plants especially they advise you to be with more."
Somehow I always knew that I'd be good at working with people, and the medical field seems perfect for that. But it's very difficult to be admitted in the med faculty (nutrition, physical/occupational/speech therapy, pharmacy, dentistry, ect). That's the problem. Now that I've been kicked out, I can't go back to where I was to choose something that is health related. My only chance to return in my program is to get the permission to do a remedial work or supplemental exam, which is almost completely impossible. I wrote a message to the co-chair few days ago, and I've not received an answer yet... 
I'm thinking about applying on law school because it requires a lower GPA. It's completely opposite to healing (even opposite to my personality), but I won't continue studying on something that is pointless... I've been spending too much time and money, I need to be pragmatic. Other options would be to apply on education... 
Angels are trying to tell me something? I don't know what to think about that. I met a medium who was communicating with my spiritual guide few months ago, and he said that I wasn't listening to my intuition and that I wasn't paying any attention to flashbacks. The medium gave me many exercices to do (breathing techniques, prayer, meditation technique)... I stopped doing all those things because I didn't see any difference. Actually, I feel that things were getting worse! My spiritual guide told me as a message that I will be able to do a supplemental exam if I re-contact the counselor I was meeting in that university. That man has the solution (it wasn't really clear). I called him as soon as I could but I learnt that he can't see me because I'm no longer studying in that university. 
Another medium told me that a woman (and I think that he was refering to my co-chair) will help me. I wrote her a message and no answer...
Nothing is working the way it should. What will be your advice, EIAI?
"Love is for today.....Did I not selflessly give you my time and compassion? Again you are not seeing it by focusing on this little issues and blowing them up to larger than they really are."
I see what you means, and I'd like to thank you again! But Im also looking (waiting) for a romantic relationship...
"if it does not come natural and you have to force and struggle, it nay not be the best path."
You may be right. But I assure you that I need to do effort on everything, and nothing comes naturally... I hope it does not mean that I should leave school or even life! I know that I had all the required qualities to be good on what I was studying, but somehow, I wasn't lucky. I feel that I didn't get what I deserved.
What do you think I should do to orientate more positively my attitude and thoughts?
Hello Acceptance Faith,
Thank you so much. I didn't expect to get the reading as soon as that.
"number one what is your focus?" : I would say that the most important thing is actually education. I'm not able to focus right now. I don't even know why I failed and I don't know what are my options. I'm 'depressed' and tired.
So your message pointed out many times the term "choice". Well, I don't feel I have a choice! I didn't choose to withdraw from the program and to study on something that doesn't have any appeal to me! If I could choose, I would go back in my inital program... I feel stuck.
I sound negative, but I can't look at my life without being disappointed. I can't stop thinking that things should have been less complicated.
So I guess that love is not for today! : ( ... I have bigger issues unfortunately.
Patience is very difficult. I already have the feeling that I've been waiting for good things to happen. I have to change my attitude, which is not easy because I feel that my life isn't what it's supposed to be. I can't allow myself to lose time and money anymore. I'd like to find something (a profession) that I love, but it seems impossible... I don't appreciate all the courses I'm taking this semester, so being dedicated is difficult on these moments. I wasn't supposed to learn those things, I was almost graduating...
I'd like to go back in time, but I can't. Instead, I have a meeting with a counsellor tomorrow. I hope this person will give me some suggestions for my professional life.
I'll try to give other feedback another day.
just to be sure... Is that reading for me, or for someone else
(if it was for me, i'll answer after)
I'm probably too late! : / If you have time during the week or even after, your help will be welcome!
... So I'll try to explain my situation. I'm 22, I was forced to withdraw from the program where I was studying because I failed a crucial exam. I'm now doing something that I don't appreciate. Nothing is positive in my life: I don't have a boyfriend, I don't do as great as I would like in school, my social life is very limited, my job is not rewarding, ect.
So, when will my life finally get better? and/or What should I do to fix my life?
Thank you!
Thank you for the reading! I really appreciate the fact that you take so much of your time for helping others. I'll try to comment every card.
1. Past (Isolation): I've always been afraid of failing and it came even more true when I started university. Before I took the test, there was a lot of movement in my life. I was living with my brother, and he had to definitely leave the country for a job opportunity. So I was trying to find a new place, and I was preparing for the exam at the same time.
2. Present/current state of things (Moon in Earth- Responsability): Honestly, I lost much more than I win. I have a part time job in a hospital that is not rewarding (a job that would have been a great experience if I didn't fail even if it's not directly related to OT). Socially, I lost several acquaintances. My love life is non-existent. I'm emotionnally and physically exhausted. Financially, I have to start over everything; education is expensive and I have to pay my too expensive rent. Nothing positive has happened to me since I was forced to leave the program. Every aspect if my life is a disaster,
3. Future (Full Air in Moon - Solution) : I hope that the solution will be found rapidly - I've been waiting for opportunities. I'm not lucky... Luck is really what's missing.
4. Past (Two Paths): Yes, I had to make a choice. At the time, I could have stayed at my mother's place, but I decided to leave. My family didn't fully support my decision. So I started to feel alone,and ultimately, I regretted my choice. I was accepted in every university, but I decided that I wanted to go at one place specifically... It has probably been my biggest mistake.
5. Present (Confession) : The person I'd like to meet -the co-chair of the program - knows everything about my situation. I didn't share everything with my family however. I know how deceitful they will be. I'm also aware that they will point my decisions, and how things would have been better if I stayed home.
6. Future (Pitcher): A natural healer? It sounds very vague to me. But I would define it as any health professional who does not treat 'pharmaceutically' patients. I have to look at the possibilities, but with my GPA, which decreased since I've been in OT -especially with the failing course- I don't think I could start something...
7. Advice from the Goddess (Venus): Is Venus saying that my profession will be what I want? OR it is saying that I should follow my passions? Because honestly, I don't feel passionate about anything. Sure, I want to be an OT and I know that I'd be a great health professional, but it isn't what I would call a passion. And I don't think I'd be able to get what I want. The faculty made it clear that they won't take me back. The co-chair suggested that I should finish another degree to get a chance to be readmitted in the master degree. That place would not be garanteed however, but I can no longer take such financially risks. So I'm really, really stuck.
You don't have to apologize!! I like discussing my issues with others because it gives me other ways to see them. The cards are telling me to keep doing what I want, to continue to pursue my 'goals'? It is really what I personally want, but I can't do much more right now...
I should write an email to the co-chair. She wasn't my advisor. I wanted my advisor to help me, but she was even more lost than I was.
Thank you so much for all your support, EIAI. It does help me. You can't even imagine how I appreciate!
Thank you Voply!!
I don't understand either how this reading (I thought we say "draw"! sorry) could be bad. She saw the Queen of Pentacles as a morose woman who is not able to see all the things that she already possesses.
I have been spending so much time by myself already.. I think that the Hermit is a very slow card... : / It is just that I don't see opportunities right now. If I had something to hold on, I will surely feel better.
Your french is pretty good! Merci beaucoup pour tes voeux! 
"And less than 2 years, I would had have my diplomaā¦ : ā(" That sentence does not make any sense!
I wanted to say that in less than 2 years, I would have had my master in OT.
(hope it's better... and i'm so sorry for all my little mistakes!)
What Iām doing right now is not for me. Iām not passionate about Iām learning and I donāt see any use of my courses. However, Iām sure that I have all the skills to be a very good occupational therapist. That was a very careful choice. And I just failed an exam. The minimal grade to pass that exam was 60% and I got 57.5%. I guess Iām just not a lucky person. And less than 2 years, I would had have my diplomaā¦ : ā(
So the āDivine Timingā card says that Iām at the right place and moment. It is not exactly what I feel! But does it mean that I have some opportunities? That I could make solid choices for my future? I will meet with a counsellor next week because Iām not sure of my available options. I really want to meet with one of the teacher I had in the other university. She is the co-chair of the program, and I really love everything about her. She was the only person in the whole faculty who really made some efforts to understand me. The last time I met her was in October. She asked me to keep her in touch, but Iāve not āevolvedā since October. Iām still under the same emotional distress. I want to write her an email, but I donāt how sheāll react. But I know sheāll be able to give good advices for my future.
Iām stuck or I feel stuck at least. I just see walls everywhere. Each time I think I opened a door, other problems end up coming. Iām tired of trying, Iāve put so much energy on everything, it just terribly frustrating when things go in the wrong direction. I think I have some anxiety issues. I tried to discuss about it with a doctor, but he didānt take it seriouslyā¦ When I have to do something important, I just lose control. I canāt think properly in these key moments.
The way we live our love lives depends a lot on the familial environment. My family is not really traditional. I think my mother has a problem with se*e. She didnāt have an easy childhood, which explains why she is so much insecure. Her insecurity makes her very protectiveā¦ But I think I'm old enough to make my own decisions in this area. Love and being with someone who feels the same is probably really rewarding.
I like being alone, so my lifestyle is not helping me meet interesting people. I usually get along with people, but only in a superficial way. As soon as I get closer to people (even for friendship), they start to move away from me.
I hope things will positively change for both of us soon. I think we truly deserve real happiness.
Thank you so much for your support!
Thank you, Watergirl!
When I was much more younger, I usually figured amongst the leaders. Today, things changed. I'm less confident and I no longer feel comfortable in the leader position. Is it saying that I should let my subconsciouss express through my consciousness?
For the hermit, you're totally right. I'm looking for advice and help from people who have more experience than me.
The ten of cups seems unattainable! Too beautiful to be real! I have no clue on how I will reach that ultimate goal, but it gives a little bit of hope!
I really appreciate your interpretation, but it would be interesting to get other point of views...
Thank you everyone
Sure, it has to do with our surroundings, the environment in general. I grew up in a very strict family, so obviously meeting people has never been encouraged. The Universe... not so sure! The way I see it is the more I want something, lesser chance I have to get it. It applies to every area in my life : love, friendship, school, job,...
Is it a lesson? And what are we supposed to learn? It's just unfair, especially when you see mean people get everything they want.
Thank you for the reading, EIAI! I was not expecting that! I really appreciate your gesture.
What you say makes sense. My English skills are very limited. I usually love to write details, but now I feel that I have to restrict myself... But I'll try be clear!
Sure, I really want to change in a good way (I expressed the same thing in the topic I created). Every psychic, medium and tarot reader I've met have mentioned the term "transformation". I guess I'm changing, but it seems to be a never-ending process.
"What is it that you have always wanted to pursue?" : I was studying in one of the best universities worldwide in the health medical field (occupational therapy), and somehow, I failed an exam. I was forced to leave everything. I'm now studying in something that does not interest me (psycholinguistics). I want to fix my life, but I just can't.
"They only need for you to believe not only yourself but in their love for you; to keep moving forward for your own good" : A medium I met in October told me the exact same thing. He gave me some breathing techniques and a positive "prayer" ... I've tried every advice he gave me, but it has never worked. I'm losing hope! I want to believe in angels, but so far, I feel I've been alone all along.
"School may not be the most important thing. Some of us get it, some of us don't. It all depends on what we do in life and how we go about doing it." : I don't imagine myself dropping out education. I used to be a very good student. I don't unverstand what happened, why and how I suddenly lost all my abilities.
Thank you, EIAI! I also wish you to get everything you've ever dreamed of!
Just a little visual support...
up...
any help??
(And none of these cards was reversed)
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Hello! I've not read all the topic... But I completely understand your concerns... I'm a 22 years old woman (girl?), and like you, I've never been in a love relationship... I would even admit that I've never been in any kind of relationship at all... My life really sycks. As if it was not enough, I failed to have success at school.
I'm sorry, I don't read cards. All I have is empathy and sympathy.
Wish you the best... We're still "young".
Hello everyone,
I'm a new member.... First, I have to tell you that I am not fluent in English ; I mainly speak French. I'll try to be as clear as possible!
I'm going through a very difficult time in my life. To make it short, I failed a crucial exam in June 2011, and I was forced to leave the program and the university where I was studying..
So, few days ago, someone made a draw for me. It was supposed to reveal what my consciousness & subconsciousness had to say to me. Somehow, I did not agree with the person who read the cards. She made it look more negative than I felt it was, especially the consciousness and subconsciousness cards. But since I don't know anything about tarot, I would like to have other opinions on that draw.
Consciousness card: Hermit
Subconsciousness card: Queen of pentacles
Future (if I finally get rid of my "internal" issues) : Ten of Cups
To me, that draw seems incredibly positive. With the Hermit, we can see that I spend time for introspection. I don't think that many negative comments can be said about the Ten of Cups. So what about the Queen of Pentacles? Is it good or bad? What does it reveal? I'm not sure to understand the meaning of this queen.
I need to change my life. I'm really scared of the future, and I feel that no matter what I do and how I do it, I always, always fail. Nothing goes the way I would like to. I'm becoming very exhausting....
Can someone help me understand that draw?
Thank you everyone for your understanding