Thank you so much for all of your positive energy that you shared with me. I don’t want to be a pessimist (which Virgos are known to be), but it is kind of hard to be positive at the moment. Just as I feel we are getting somewhere, things go sour again. You are correct, he is a Libra and I am a Virgo and we look great together on paper, but we are not making it. We normally workout together and he does not want to do that anymore. With his birthday coming up soon, we should be planning a tri somewhere, and he has no interest. I just don’t see us getting better. I am tired of his sour attitude, but I have been giving him the benefit of the doubt because he “claimed” to be bothered by my actions so badly. He has confessed to at least meeting other women, and I think entertaining them at his home. He still insists that I am hiding things, and in a way I am. My ex did recently contact me, but I did not mention it to him. He has no problem telling me about his female encounters. I kind of feel that is tacky. Anyway, since he feels that he cannot trust me to deal with males, I made a few changes with my email, online profiles, and phone service, but I did not make permanent changes. I will give him just enough to feel that he has control of a situation, but I know that he doesn’t. I didn’t feel like I should have had to give p anything, which is mainly part of the problem. I have a very strong spirit, and I feel that he wants to break me. Now as a man, I do respect his position and if things were different I would never have a issue with submitting to him, because he has shown me that he can handle business. Like I stated before, he tells me stories about women that basically drop everything for him, and that is not me. I feel that we should be able to co-exist with a certain level of respect, and at the moment I am not getting it from him.
The only love that I feel is mine. And it is crazy love. I have been going over all of this in my mind, and being an analytical person, I will make a decision with my mind instead of my heart , because that is what will make sense to me.
I can be insecure, but at the moment I am not. I kind of feel like I just don’t give a ****. He does feel like I am too much like him. And that is what he feels. I can’t change it, although I don’t see it the way that he does, because although I do have male friends around me, I have no interest in entertaining them. Now do I enjoy all of the attention I get, well yes I do. I am only human, but he makes it sound like it is something bad. He says that I get attention because men want to *** me, and he gets attention because women see him as a future lifetime mate.
Lucky to have me, I am not sure that he can tell. He has so many women flocking behind him, that he can’t see it at the moment. I do know one thing, and I feel that it will come to this and I don’t want it to. But, I really feel that once he finishes whatever he is doing, that I will no longer have an interest in him, and I will not be able to get it back. I fight so hard to maintain, because once I am gone. I am gone! I can’t turn back. It like there is a higher power stopping me.
Thanks again for taking time out to respond. Believe me, talking about it has made things a lot easier.