HI everyone, Its march 2010, i'm a psychic and former LONG time member of amorc order,
I feel certain things occur for various reasons,,..disappointments also..example;
just because I'm a psychic,mystical soul, doesn't assure my becoming rich of funds in life, i don't promote myself since back into maybe 1996,or so. also when PLANET URANUS was into aquarius its last yr there in, i met someone at a grocery store with a rural girlfriend i used to drive to shop for her groceries for 12 yrs i drove her out of her rural home and all that. well, I had been a devoted wife and married ALONG Time to a scorpio MALE 3 planets he has in scorpio born he is on nov 5th of 1950 at 10;55am in newark new jersey.,he looks abit like actor H. Winkler another scorpio from that HAPPY days series on tv from the past, though this scorpio with moon ,saturn in virgo,and capricorn hour rising,rules the legs,& (knees he is having his 3rd surgery in may)is NOW MY X husband after 34 yrs married, I lived okay though poor of funds the first 17 yrs of the marriage,or more, then things improved abit, i found out back in like 1997 that i was of course LIVING THRU HIS KARMA <his 2="" 3="" 7="" life="" lessons,="" of="" which="" are="" in="" numerology="" he,="" the="" scorpio="" saturn="" moon="" virgo,male="" has="" #2,@7="" &="" #4="" karmic="" is="" he="" a="" temper,still="" has.the="" to="" learn="" metaphysical,spiritual="" abit="" ignores.the="" #4to="" work="" this="" for="" things="" value,he="" has,="" worked="" yes,="" alot,too.="" long="" trips="" over="" roads="" trucking.since="" about="" 1988.thru="" now,though="" grew="" acustomed="" road,his="" trucker="" pals,laughs,and="" likely="" few="" waitresses,as="" 1named="" candy,up="" by="" ny-quebec="" border="" told="" me="" so,back="" like="" yr="" 2000.when="" we="" were="" living="" into="" new="" home="" i="" had="" put="" in,="" wanted="" no="" part="" it.____his="" planets="" midheaven,hes="" worker,="" though="" hates="" working,and="" stuck="" doing="" driving="" due="" having="" insurance="" thru="" his="" job="" free.etc.="" gave="" up="" and="" was="" only="" modest="" total="" fifty="" eight="" thous.completed.lovely="" high="" walls,="" inside.he="" refused="" keep="" home,="" main="" provider="" marriage="" with="" me,="" lived="" far="" rural,in="" pa.i="" used="" feel="" sorry="" him,="" babied="" him="" all="" ways="" just="" ranted="" raved="" as="" older,as="" alot="" males="" do="" especially="" if="" they="" have="" that="" lesson="" ,and="" temper="" one.,he="" instantly="" weight="" when="" wed,and="" learned="" entire="" family="" such,="" didn't="" stop="" from="" loving="" man,i="" felt="" hard="" teens="" too,="" onto="" dads="" then="" farm,="" now="" hes="" dropped="" also="" lovely="" low="" cost="" together="" 1997,he="" boughten="" seven="" thous.="" dollars="" worth="" nice="" talking="" lionel="" other="" train="" engines,we="" attended="" public="" shows,="" liking="" common,="" parted,="" break="" items="" constantly="" on="" weekends="" began="" acting="" out="" worst="" toward="" whims,="" my="" dr.="" x.="" bi="" polar="" manic="" depressive.he="" treat="" it="" meds,="" may="" interfered="" ability="" drive="" road="" trucking.<br="">so we are divorced, he refused to go to any marriage counselor or even take prozac low dose the dr did give him and he took for one yr. Now, I who was born with NO karmic life lessons,
into a quiet family, and had a okay nice childhood, have lived thru 2 marriages with 2 males who both treated me as if I were in the way after a few years, and they were working with other women around them,and pals. THE first husband never stayed home, in life, and continued to not while we were married, the second one the scorpio, worked long hr,s trucking local first 17 yrs of marriage then second 17 yrs worked driving OUT of town all week gone.
I was told i was living thru hardships as i was experiencing THEIR karmic life lessons by being WITH THEm in this life. NOW i chose the past year to reside with one daughter who has other karmic life lessons one is the number 9, i would say, that is one of the worst ones.to have.
shes bossy, and thinks only she is all knowing to all people she picks on.
THE x husband scorpio virgo.cap rising i had for 34 yrs cares nothing of my survival.
I lived a home maker and into my metaphysical studies all thru the yrs since 1978,and he did not resent that at all, he just isn't a caring soul, no romance and no feelings, he dislikes all humans around HIM. , he used to dislike his brother another scorpio.,stout who dates NO women in his life ever, both now ended up living rural up the road from the HOME i had put in which this x scorpio hubby made me sell, as I could NOT pay him his half,of it. nor was it all paid for ,we had it only maybe six yrs.before that we had been living into a once new then it turned old Long mobil home.onto his rural land, from his father. HIS father is now passed thru transition since nov 4th of 2008. the night before the x hubby scorpios birthday, also THE farm was put into their name way back,when my x turned age3 same day. I"M only glad in some way, I am not being abused by his hitting in a mood or going thru his breaking household items, i found out from him, 7 yrs ago, he was always rude and abit nasty mooded in youth, too, HE dislikes people around him. i'm sure there are millions of others like that. in Life, and some spouses can't understand what is wrong with their spouse...also, some people DISLIKE living INTO a home, house, they LIKE to be OUT doors, he likes trucking ,yet also at times dislikes it. THE fact is everyones different and hes
likely abit sorry we are not married, though hes abit too weak minded in life to pay onto a home,and selfish., he inherited wit his brother some farm lands, though HIS brother never married OWNS the tiny HOUSE rural,they both share , THE x always seemed to gravate to liking men who were of either drinking too much though he did not drink, and men for pals at work who liked to cheat or talk bad to their wives., i found that out also. when i filed the divorce in 2003, HE told me 5 other wives from his truck company filed also divorces. even though i do not know them.
_______then i trusted OUR son, who IS a good soul, married now. with MY cash from the sale of the small home left after paying the larger balance onto it, and sharing some with the x scorpio.
I trusted this cancerian son born july of 1976 whose BIRTH I PLANNED for 2 yrs. and received the very CHILD cancerian sign I had planned and asked for, trusted HIM with my cash,
he held for me, instead of keeping it into the bank. I had lost my hosptization with the divorce as my alone working lawyer ,dislikes courts and talked me into signing a OUT of court divorce, i had wanted to go BACK together with the scorpio to save the home,and marriage though he refused totaly saying HE DID NOT WISH TO PAY ON ANY HOME. and liked living back up the farm house.wk ends. ____so what does life doe to souls,.. we trust a spouse , they sometimes don't really stay with us in life, they sometimes are lowere minded souls, or weak of mind to keep even one home, or selfish combined with that., or is it that we who are NOW divorced from THEM, are better off, in some ways,.. no more tolerating their nastyness moods, or catering to their every desire of meals, romance,or no romance, no talking, no affection.. so maybe we are MEANT to be now experiencing life differently, and if we KEEP away from those who are experiencing BAD karma of their OWN... we won't experience it by avoid ing them,. STill mothers, females tend to nuture souls , this son I planned HIS birth for 2 yrs and received him, I do love, yet he spent ten thousand dollars of my funds,cash, on 2 trips to europe and 2 to vegas, though i feel OKAY on that ,able to feel I let the son experience his travels, with his pals, and paid in a sense his wedding,.. i am now poor of funds., yet in ways he helps me, by being here for me, i stay at his home when i am needed and he bakes us a pizza, takes me to lunches, Pays my triple A auto.,and some other minor things.in life. I do love him. ALSO we both for over 25 yrs now feel HE is my own father REINCARNATED..here, MY son is a cancerian birth 3 planets midheaven born on a full moon, yr of the fire dragon. 1976. Libra rising sign. moon in business capricorn.
And people do love him, hes genteel, and caring. yet abit stern and good also.
he does work independently his own business, hes now age 33,HES considering another trip too with his wife in august. and owes me yet the funds, What would one think of this...and what would one do of it., one can't really do much, it is up to him. HIS father the x. has no care of what happened, nor if i survive, THE x did tell me yrs ago, he woke up into his work truck while away and saw a creature he felt was evil, I don't know if such exist to interfer into a souls life,
though, some people do say its possible, what is anyones opinon on the x, the scorpio who abandoned me and our home.which was not costly.,and his inheriting land now with his bachelor brother,...and my sons not repaying me my funds, in a good sum, just sparringly, what are you opinions on all this. remember < i was born according to numerology with NO kamric life lessons, though my now x husband J. has the 2, 4 to work, and 7 inner self, of which he ignores. life lessons and the son who owes me ten thous. he spent, on trips,etc back in yr 2006,
also has the same life lessons the x husband has. THE 2 of a temper, the 4 to work this life for things of valule, hes purchased this past yr, a Home yes, his wife now of over a year, is a psychic type gal, they both like the psyhic , like a vegan diet,and yoga, i'm like a secretary when i'm here,which is only maybe once a month,and he had wanted to purchase a brand new built modular home onto a full basment, and i was supposed to LIVE into the homes MODERN lovely basement with LONG 71 inch windows and patio doors in back, though HE then
gave me back some funds, and still owes me ten thous.HE months later just went and purchased this used nice home with matching garage. which i do visit to watch our pedigree small pets when he and she go to visit HER parents into another state. or Like this wkend, they went to see a museum into southern pa and Independence building .in phila. pa. for only 2 days, i'm here watching the home, they are suited fine for one another having the psychic interest together in life., She works as a hair stylist goes also nightly now to college for medicial arena studies.
HE has 2 STEP children now with his wife.hers. OF which i do like alot also.
I"m wondering why I was so into the mode of not realizing that he would spend my funds, i left him hold back in yr 2006, though in a way, if i had spent them myself, Now, He would NOT owe me any funds, and HE might enjoy this way of owning me funds, in his mind, and its like some attachement to me,in a sense. what do you all think.on it. I planned his birth you know, sitting up midnight for hrs for 2 yrs, the first yr i thought i was pregnant with him , wasn't though but the 2nd yr i gave birth to the VERY sign I had decided strongly I WISHEd to have for a son, and I knew i would have a son. THIS son, is a cancerian 3 planet sign, with his merc. and venus into cancer also, born on july 11th, also KNOW that any children born to anyone whose birthdate is the 2nd ,11th or 20th of ANY month is specially concerned of their mother or both parents in LIFE.
by the books.saying such. in numerology. I read in the past. ALSO we have the psychic and astrolgy interests in common. I had back in earlier yrs, been thinking of a taurus child,but when i read how unattractive the very wealthy taurus looked into one book describing the signs and hrs born of each, etc,... i decided strongly instead to have a CANCERIAN birth son,and did.
also know that WHOEVER IS INTO OUR <your, astro="" birth="" wheels="" 10th="" space="" (house)<br="">is who acts parental to you.in life... and we both here feel HE is my OWN former father michael,
reincarnated,. since he was very young, HE once knew i was thinking on my dad, in my then van as i was driving, quietly, when he was about age five, he also has the same facial appearance and presence sensed by me of my former father michael who was a 1917 born aries with pisces placments born in march 24th 1917. AND THE clincher here on all that, IS;
this son, john, the cancerian, with moon in capricorn. venus in cancer sign, also CHOSE ON HIS OWN to live INTO MY fathers HOME town where the tiny family home is, in pa. when he was age about 20 he moved to the town, and now owns a home into the town next to where he chose to reside, he also likes the same foods my father loved. and has his wrinkled forehead, i do not have that at all, he also has my fathers blonde hair.and presence is sensed as him.
of course now, if i had that measly ten thousand, it would likely be spent on having medicial insurance and other rent,of which it would be sort of throw away in that sense also.
so how does one see the picture the story on things., in life.. concerning funds.
MY sign is January aquarius 3 planets into my 5th wheels house, NO planet into its 12th nor 8th houses. I have neptune into libra into its 1st house of most mystical of all. I surely have had my share of unusual mystical experiences in life as likely millions have had. and I was always in ways protected in life . I do have the lovely libra appearance, though by the computer i am virgo rising, and do have the hairline V which goes with anyone with Virgo rising, I don't go by virgo rising truly, since into MY wheels 1st house OF NEPTUNE IN LIBRA. i do LOOK like a LIBRA.
and act quite like one.,in ways. genteel, helpful,and of good manners.
I have by birth saturn and pluto into LEO into wheels 11th house space, MY mother is a short dark eyed NOT like myself, TAURUS,age soon 85,she favors my brother who tends to talk abit down to her, and is not close living by to her, his rising sign hr is aquarius so he has NO sign of taurus into his 8th house on HIS wheel, yet he is always acting as if shes in the way,and hes selfish. She does not ever favor me, only males, and of course him, shes not into the metaphysical but is a okay gal, owns her tiny home, and has alot of karmic life lessons, SHE has the 3,4,to work, she did, the 7,8th to handle money,and the 9 for bein cruel to others in HER past lives. shes had many surgerys in life and survies yet, fine with her new heart valve also last june .
as for myself, i do too much some people claim, for others,
and I would like to meet a man in life who is abit protective of Me, and home with me, though In this nation, I could NOt marry legally anyone, or I would LOSE the upcoming social lsec. from tmy long time former x spouse who is 3 yrs younger than I am, so presently though i am age now 63,i can NOT collect a cent until he retires.so I would like having a man finally who is not feeling
resentment of women in life, and is there ,here for me. I dated only for lunches out the past 3 yrs,and i feel MY interest all these 30 yrs into the metaphysical has sort of prevented ME from meeting someone who is sort of tolerant of such or of a like Mind,interest.
BEING born on the 31st, numerology states that scorpio, taurus and leo play a role into MY life, of which the former LONG time x spouse is that scropio...mymother is the taurus, the farmland i had the lovely small new home onto applys in a sense to taurus, as farmland,it is.
and the LEO, is one son, but ALSO we had wed the scorpio and I wed during leo on july 29th 38 yrs ago. this july. at 8 ;10 pm in church. HE is not going to act any warmer or concerned of me nor of any woman, in his life, he is not concerned with any humans, only of himself. and he claims he will help our son. which my mother passed that on to me. though he was a poor student into high school i found out, by seeing his one report card in HIS sr yr, from 1968, I do realize he has no real business accume mind, and he gave up me and the modesdt home i put in with my down payment.out of some type of mind he has, or was meant to be. what do some of you think on it all of this former spouse i had for over 34 yrs, gone now, living free of cost onto his inherited now farmland with his bachelor farm brother? both dislike people around them. THERE is 1 sister they have into florida who visits and also has 1 daughter, OUR son will inherit the farmlands some day with that niece who is a scropio with aquarius rising. from florida.I feel i will live to age 87 or longer in life. I do miss the home i had rural up on the mt top in pa.Though the x made that end.</your,></his>