dear myna, I feel you are going from one relationship to other and not realising what you really want and depending on a relationship to answer your questions. Do you always need a relationship to make you feel whole? I feel you jump from one to other and always looking for them to fulfill your life is this wise? What about your growing spirit as I know you are questioning what is at the momment. You feel lost and not sure where to go and in the mean time fall into another persoons arms. You need to spend time by yourself to see what you really want without depending on other peoples opinions. You appear lost to me and not sure where to go. The way you are going is not the right choice and you need to spend sometime feeling who you are. Are you lost for some reason. I feel you have lost your way and need to gain your self confidence and be yourself if you have ever gained this. I am not trying to be harsh but some people take longer to find themselves ha others and allow others to guide us even though they maybe inthe wrong direction. Your question on this site made me realise that you want answers now. So look within to find your beauty and your love and you will find yourself and you maybe surprised at what a strong perosn you really are. Be strong and find yourself and than make a very sensible decision. Love and light A.