I'm new to this forum but have been very interested in dreams and divination. Lately, I've felt a VERY strong urge to become seek my spiritual side and find self-actualization. I've read some books on it (and will add searching Edgar Cayce to my list after seeing above post) and mediation. I'm reading a book on meditation and started a section on astral projection, which has always interested me. The other night I had probably one of the strangest dreams ever (and I have some weird ones!). Please forgive for the long post but I REALLY need some input on this.
Let me first add I just finsihed the book, "What Dreams May Come" by Richard Matheson which talks about life after death and reincarnation. So I've become very interested in that subject too.
The dream started off with me coming out of this farm house in the country (not mine) and something didn't feel right so I tried to go back inside and try again. I came outside and felt a breeze whipping up and felt a sense of absolute calm come over me I continued to walk and there was this light colored dog that I felt would've bite me but didn't instead it just walked beside me as I continued to this dirt lane in wide open country fields. As I looked around I could see on going scenes of "happiness" and people interacting and they were so happy, it was like I was watching them from afar. There were several of these. It imediately reminded me of "Heaven" in the book "What Dreams May Come". I stopped, awestruck and watched. My mood in the dream was positive and then I had a negative thought and just like that the scenes I was watching changed and became vulgar and evil. I changed my thoughts to positive and so did the scenes I watched. I continued on and found myself at a house party where the scene was very lively. I walked through the party and the people apparently knew me and I acted as I knew them. I had a great time there and next thing I know it was like I was teleported to my one true loves house. (In reality I just moved to AZ from PA and left behind my one true love who makes my heart flutter whenever I think of him). I was there with him and I could "feel" (in my sleep) my heart swelling with happiness even though we were fighting. We eventually made up and then we were moved forward to a scene where we- me and him and friends of his- were being marched out of a futuristic jail in handcuffs about to be sentenced (he was involved in some illegal activity in PA). They let me go but he was sentenced to 99 years (I remember that very distinctly) and then I'm on some type of amusement ride that swings me backwards at a very fast rate and he is gone. I "feel" this profound sense of sadness. I return home and the scene repeats itself, the whole dream. It was then that I realized (in my dream) that I was doing astral projection! I "sent" myself back to be with him and stayed as long as I could with him. There were a few times that it didn't work and I'd go home and ask my mom to help me get in the same position that I was in when I projected myself to be with my love. It worked!
Throughout the dream I actually FELT emotions in my real body while sleeping. Lately I've become more intuitive than before, I've always been somewhat more in tune than others around me. After I woke from this dream I had a sense of calm, excitement and an unsettling feeling. Mostly I was kind of in shock that I had a dream that I projected myself to be with the one I really love. Also in the end of the dream we were reunited and the initial feeling of seeing him made me feel as though my heart would burst with happiness.
I should also say that several of my dreams have come true and I do log them. This one had so many more details but this was the main part of it.
PLEASE if anyone could give me some insight on what you think this means. Also, after the dream my urge to become more intouch with my spiritual side has increased. I feel it is necessary now. I'm really looking for some guidance as I feel that this is a priority in some ways.
I've read books on the subject of mediation and realizing self-actualization and knowledge but am not sure how to go about starting it. I've tried to become non-judgemental, positive thoughts, meditate. What else can I do to start my journey? I am MOST grateful for any advice or insight.
Thank you so much and sorry for the long post. I hope it was understandable.