I have been married one year and four months to a man who I thought was my soul mate, only to find myself now preparing to leave and divorce him.
We met in 2004, and I left him in 2005. I spent 2 wonderful years on my own, no man in sight. He found me in 2007, proclaimed himself clean and sober for those 2 years spent without me, and said he was a changed man. Indeed he is.
He is now obsessed with addictions. Anything & everything that feels good, whether natural or chemical, is bad and must be avoided and denied. He won't take medicine for a headache, or for his (made up diagnoses, he says) of Bipolar. Now he won't drink coffee; he claims I have a "coffee addiction" when I only drink 3 cups per morning, and the occasional cappachino. And it keeps getting worse; now "marital relations" have joined his deny list. If it feels good, avoid it all all costs...is, I believe, how his warped thinking goes.
He refuses to even go for marriage counseling-or any kind of counseling. He spends little time near me-which I am now grateful for. Funny how things change.
I believed him to be my soulmate, only to realize he is killing my soul, slowly and cruelly.
I won't have enough money to leave this cursed house until September...and today is July 30th. <sigh.>One more month, time to find somewhere to go, as I have nowhere to flee to as of now.
I have learned valuable lessons from this relationship, and I have remained strong and sane, somehow. I have been calling on strength I never knew I had to get through these last few months with him.
If any of you out there read these words, if you have any advice for me, words of wisdom, grains of sanity to spare, any input at all, please don't hesitate to respond and post.</sigh.>
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