maLeo,

thanks for sharing your story! i too have been suffering scorpio man blowoff for about a month and the pain is at times unbearable. all i can think about is what i did wrong from the beginning of our 3 month relationship and how can i get him back.

our last night together about 2 weeks ago was magical but he blew me off the very next day for the 2nd time this month and i did not just ignore it. now all the things that have been getting my back up for almost all of Sept have turned into what looks like a drawn-out breakup that i wish i had done more to prevent from the start.

when i drew my line in the sand i got no response so i lightened up my tone to match his and said i hoped we were on speaking terms at least !he said he's just been busy, yadi yadi.. something definitely changed and i don't know if it's going to go back or if i even want it now, but it really sucks that things went this way.

he was pretty communicative from the start, but i was a bit shy and reserved when it came to discussing us. his personality tended to take over when we were together and he's quite a bit younger than me so, i would just sort of play it cool. i figured in time he would know me and i thought our bond was getting stronger until whamo! one saturday night he goes out with friends instead of calling me like he had every saturday since we started dating.

since then he has been hot and cold, and there have been what i guess you would call spats and discussions about the loyalty of our relationship. he had asked for loyalty but i never had. so i did - after i saw pictures of him partying on FB the night he blew me off - and he assured me that he was loyal.

then he blew me off again and several days later sent me a light-hearted email about it. by this time i was pretty shaken up and let him know that i would like to know what his take was on relationships and what he would like from me. he didn't even respond to it (this is all by email btw). after several days i sent a light-hearted email saying i guess now HE was upset and i hoped that we were on speaking terms at least! i told him that i had hoped we could come to some sort of understanding so we could still hang out, and that i had been under some personal pressures and didn't want any confusion between us making it worse. he answered right away saying of course he wasn't upset, just busy at work, and of course we can hang out, he even had a dream about me so we have this connection.. stuff like that. no aknowledgement of anything serious. that was a few days ago. i feel dumped. my heart's in my throat and my guts are wrenched. there is soooooo much i wish i would have done differently to get closer to him when i had the chance but i was playing it cool and playing it safe and let a scorpio just sort of run up on me, capture my heart and leave me cold.

i'm in hell right now. all i can think about is how important it is in relationships to try your best to do it right, no matter what do not take anything or anyone for granted, especially yourself!!! you may not get another chance. right before i met him i had turned to self help for my personal issues, so i thought i was being strong by keeping him at bay and not putting my stuff on him. he kept saying he wanted to know my secrets and revealed his, but i barely came out of my shell. now i wish i would've just owned it bc he pretty much knows it all anyway and i look and feel unsure. i guess i just was waiting to know it was safe. maybe it still is. he said he would hate to lose my friendship over nothing. maybe after this cooling off we will be friends and then who knows, maybe there will be another chance to establish something better. maybe he's just a jerk. that's the hellish phase i am in. i think it's called the 'disillusionment' phase. either way i have to proceed like we are no longer together even though we never had a discussion ending it. it seems that Mr Talkative is suddenly very indirect this month. maybe it's that damn mercury in retrograde. i just keep wearing out that serenity prayer!

thanks for reading and all the best

Peace