Hi Captain, good to read you again, sorry for being tardy in replying
I've been feeling rigid and unbending to be honest, and agree that there's been a traumatic event somewhere in my past that I can't identify and can't put to rest because of not knowing what it was. Even my chiropractor says that, even though my nerve pathways are starting to open, there is still a long way to go. He did warn me at the start that I'd feel like giving up, and he has proved to be right.
I've tried various stretches, but given up, because the pain got worse than better. After reading your reply, I took a look at the Japanese towel method, and a Japanese breathing technique which I've been doing for the last three days (the breathing one). I tried the towel exercise yesterday for the first time, and will try again today. The pain is no worse and slightly better, so maybe this might be the thing for me.
Briefly, I have a twisted pelvis, scoliosis, and was diagnosed with a spinal spur in 2012, as well as a herniated disc (can't remember what part of the spine though). Those things came good after bed rest, then gentle exercise, and after two weeks, I was back at work.
This time though, I'm lucky to be able to walk to the front gate without walking like a bloody penguin!
I can feel resentment deep down though, and don't know if it's towards my family or my ex-husband, or both. There was a lot of emotional trauma that I experienced at my family's hands in 2005, and at my ex-husbands hands when I ended the marriage in 2009.
Boy, I feel like it's all coming back to roost, even though I thought I'd moved on from it all. But to be honest, when I really think about it, I wait for an apology from my parents that'll possibly never come. As for my sister who caused the whole thing in 2005, she passed away in 2017, God rest her soul. I was to blame for everything to do with the family rift, even though it wasn't all my fault.
Hopefully, with meditation and these new techniques I've found, I'll open up those channels properly and be able to rid myself of the deep-seated trauma for once and for all.
You did mention "when I was young" though. I can only remember copping a fair bit of nasty crap from my sister (she was 6 1/2 years older than me) which she did out of earshot of my parents. It was AWFUL.
Thank you for taking the time to read and answer my question. Your answer, and the information about sciatica, made a lot of sense, but of course, this blonde Aussie chick is still confused lol! Confused, but hopeful that I find out what it is that is keeping me so stuck in the past.
I hope you are well! As said above, it's good to read you again! Take care, cheers xoxoxo