Well Captain...You are right about one thing...I do want back what I had w/ him. I want to thank you for all the thought provoking answers and insights you have given me...certainly something to think about. Peace and love to you and I'll let you know if anything further developes in the situation. MM (and I will work on strengthening my current relationships and following my dreams)

Captain, I am wondering if you mean closure in this life or closure in the past life? Because i thought i had closure on this life eighteen yrs ago. I didn't just wake up one morning and decide i was going to start thinking about someone i hadn't heard from or seen in yrs. I don't know where that energy came from but right now i just wish it would leave. If you mean closure on the past life, i can understand how that my soul might need that...maybe i never gave up. But how do you get closure on a past life???????????????? I'll be grateful for any help you can give on this.

Captain, I was glad to hear that you think this is a soulmate connection. As for what kind: definitely not motherly or sisterly. We had a physical relationship before and the connection still feels romantic. I have done a small amount of past life work and have seen us together in the past. This is what i saw: him on a bulldozer, me standing beside a very large round flower bed, very, very pregnant and then him lying in the road on a motercycle at a crossroads. I am not making this up. I think that is why we formed such an immediate and intense connection to each other, we have actually been searching for each other in this life. Does that make any sense to you?? Anyways i have been living my life not knowing what was really in my heart until this summer and when i realized that i still loved him after eighteen years of not seeing him it was amazing, incredible and scary. I didn't really know what love was i guess, maybe that is what i had to learn. Even if we are never together again i will always love him. As for our telepathic connection, it is very strong. All summer i kept getting the distinct impression he was spending his weekends on a boat on the water. Why would i even think he had a boat? After some investigative work, guess what, HE OWNS A BOAT!! I have also tried to find out where he is working telepathically and i came up with Grand Island. After researching his company on the internet i found out that they did indeed work in Grand Island this summer. So i don't know what our future holds but i don't think our time together is done...i guess only time will tell. But i do feel like my life has been a big circle to get back to here...or maybe it's to arrive here. Too bad i couldn't have taken the straight path :)...but maybe it's all about the journey. Anyways, thank you for your input and i would love to hear any other insights that you might have. Lots of peace and love to you. MistyMountain

Captain,

I have an experience that i would like to share w/ you and get your opinion on as you seem to know a lot about this kind of thing. Eighteen years ago i met a man and we connected...due to other circumstances we could not have the kind of relationship that we wanted. He was here working and we saw each other every day for five months. I was just starting out on my metaphysical journey and did not have a lot of faith but we were able to read each others thoughts and feelings. Even after he left this continued...i even kept a journal so that i could prove to myself in later years that it all really happened. Over the years i have "seen" various things happen in his life but have gone on my own path, believing that we were over and having two unsuccessful relationships. I have been alone for a year and about six months ago i was at work...standing outside taking pictures...and as i turned to walk inside i felt his energy surrounding me...i don't know if he drove by or what...but i definitely felt it and have felt it everyday since. I know he thinks about me, cares about me, but i think he is afraid. I have contacted him and told him i would like to see him again but have heard nothing back yet. Yesterday as i was thinking about him i remembered something i had seen in his life eight to ten years ago...it was a funeral, in a church, with candles burning and his heart and soul were reaching out to me to help him get thru it...i think it might have been his son...he was crying..but i have no proof of that. I think he may have shut down emotionally so as to not feel that kind of pain again. I have tangible proof of a lot of the things i have sensed about him so i believe what i saw about the funeral. I guess my question is...what do you think about all this, how can i help him, and what kind of connection do we have? I really do love him and believe that this following my heart is leading me back to him...i just don't know for what purpose. I am looking foward to hearing what you think about all of this and am glad to have someone to talk to about it. All my friends would think i was crazy if i told them any of this.

Wow...I'm so glad I found this place! I too have been on a very painful journey...it's not easy giving up control and listening to your heart, but I am doing it and lots of days I have to depend on God for help and guidance and strength. I have faith that I am on the right path now and that everything will be alright. Love to all!

Hi Sarah~ it's so nice to meet you~i too have just recently joined and it is so good to be able to connect with others that share the same values and ideas. The world can be a really lonely place but here it feels like home. I love your new deck~something in me really resonated with the image you posted~and wish you lots of luck with your future readings. Lots of love~Missy

Cosmica

I too would love a reading if you decide to try out your new deck, just to see what you come up with. My birth info: 2/20/60 10:52 am Albany, NY

LOVE the image...magical, mystical w/ a great sense of power, like something could definitely happen. Thanks for sharing it. I love tarot and because of things happening in my life that are unexplainable do a daily reflection reading everyday here on this site. My faith, patience and emotional wellbeing are all being tested and tarot really helps to see the big picture, along with God's help. Good luck w/ your readings.

Hi Ahliyah... I've read with great interest your posts and would like to join to Circle of Gold. I've been doing the work on my own but feel it would be very helpful to have the help and support of all on this forum. Maybe God is actually pointing me here as I have read some of the post before but did not join. Much love and relaxation on your vacation. MistyMountain