Hello fellow Aquarians:) I've always loved being an Aquarian,till now that is I'm on the Aqua/Pisces cusp though, so that has its good and bad points. Was in a serious relationship with a Scorpio for a year, and I loved him so much. Yet our personalities ended up clashing on a major scale. His need for 'privacy' and his mysterious side clashed with me being so analytical and needing to know about everything. I'm not perfect. I've never been jealous of anyone or anything ever before, you're right, it is a worthless feeling. We are who we are and we make the best of our own lives, cos that's what our purpose here is for. Had a bad time with some of the men I chose along the way, I'm very sensitive and my high energy levels can make me quite erratic sometimes. This combined with his Scorpio deepness, of not telling me what I've needed to know, has forced us apart. I grew up with arguing, grew up with domestic violence so that always led me down the path that I never wanted to. I like togetherness, openess, honesty. I hate lies. So I found out that he'd lied, and I couldn't handle it, felt so betrayed. I've learned so much about his sign since he left, and now I wish I'd have known more then. Then I probably could have handled it better and I wouldn't have lost him like I have now. I mailed him yesterday and told him a few things, that maybe I shouldn't have. He's now back in touch with the ex, who I always knew he'd end back with. Aqua's are known as 'predictors', always seeing ahead, which sometimes is a pain! I've been on the verge of a breakdown with all of this, still holding it together though, got to for my kids and family, and for me. I love being an Aquarian, but sometimes I hate it. Sometimes it feels like a curse. Sometimes I wish I was a stronger sign like an Aries or a Capricorn, so things wouldn't bother me as much, so I could brush things off and say, hey, ya know what, who cares. But I do care, and that's why I always end up in a mess like I do. I used to run away alot as a kid, and I still do it now. I run away from situations and from people when I should be staying around and dealing with them head on. I've lost a lot of friends through that. Like I said, even I aint perfect. I've been thinking of my actions a hell of a lot these past few weeks, wondering how things could be if I had handled them differently. I've lost the best thing I ever loved. Now and his Scorpio head has brought him to somewhere else, he's over it already. Know that once they get their minds set there's no going back on a decision. Gawd what's to do folks!

2 Of Cups is as renouned as the Lovers in a reading , signifying one and one makes two, a love and bonding. It can also heed as a warning though so please be aware, that although it is a positive card in a reading when wanting to know an answer to a question regarding love, it's also asking you to be patient and to let things unfold in due course. It can also mean the end or the beginning of something new.

3 Of Cups signifies a mutual friendship right now, something that isn't what you want but may be how it's got to be, it's all about compromise for the good of each. It of course can mean a celebration later on of something becoming successful, by that I mean the stars can shine down on you to help you achieve and gaing great success if that's what you're looking for. You also need to have faith at this time.

The Knight of cups is indeed a card of reaffirmation in love and deep rooted feelings but doesn't necessarily mean that it's a re joining of two people, could be a new attraction there, on either side of course. Cups shows emotions and the card maybe telling you to think of your actions before throwing yourself into the unknown. It also shows that you have a flair for being open and not scared at showing your feelings even though the other (ex) may be the opposite to you and is driving you crazy with not showing hers, or even winding you up at the moment to hurt you (Even I know that one!) :s

Hope that helps Good luck too!

I had a younger man too, 17 years younger. In the beginning the age was never a question with us, we were bothe struck down by that four letter word and went with how we felt. Had some major issues with my kids, but he stuck by me through all of the bad times, that was the only proof that I needed that he loved me. He made me feel young, even though I've always been young at heart anyway, I act young, dress young, so that wasn't an issue with us. I felt awkward with his family though, especially with his mum at first. But in the end they came around and accepted me, though deep down I know that they were just doing that, for his sake. That made me clam up. Went quiet on his mum, though tried not to let it bother me so much. Love, doesn't matter who its with, how old they are, what they look like, or what their beliefs are. When you find love, you just 'feel it'. You know. Not just in your heart, but everywhere you look. If you're happy, enjoy it. Don't listen to pessimists who point the finger, telling you it won't last. Stay strong as a couple, be together, share together, and live each day with as much unawareness and spontaniety as you can. If you have issues, talk about them. Don't let minor worries get in the way. Having a younger man isn't a crime, shouldn't be treat like a crime, because at the end of the day, we're all human with the same wants and needs. Good luck, and GO for it!! xxxxx

God I get so much comfort from reading on here. I'm telling you to go with your gut too sweety. The heart can hold so many memories that seem bitter sweet when you compare them to what your instincts tell you. I've been put in pretty much the same predicament due to outside influences working against me. My thinking has been clouded due to my hearts desire, but hearts go on in different directions, and one day, soon I hope, mine will too. Give yourself the time and the courage to overcome the pain from what really hurts you, be strong, love the person that you were meant to be It does help to get others insights on pain and getting over it. Someone already has left me with a thought on here; You need to go through the pain, not as a shortcut, but the whole experience, to come out of it a better, wiser person. Another thing that I believe in. Things in life, happen for a 'reason'. Trust in who you are, take the bad experiences, and learn from them, and you'll never go wrong. Be you're own council. Take no pity. Love yourself, and live your life. Be good to you, and those that aren't simply aren't worth it. I rest my case Take care love xxxx

Sounds like your confidence is at 'rock bottom' too, Look love, men, through all of their good points and all of their bad, whatever starsign they are, will take an opportunity if its put in front of them, and use it to the best of their ability. They hate other men taking an interest. More so the Scorpio I'd say, they're very possessive when it comes to 'other men taking an interest. Gemini - Friendly, flirtatious, outgoing, sociable. Go with what you feels best for you. Sure you know deep down the one you 'click' with the most Be aware though, that you should put yourself first for once. I'm in a mess with a Scorpio man, because I've seemed avaliable due to me loving him like no one else, he's lost interest. Keep them both at arms length. Have some YOU time. Sounds like you need it chick. Hope you find what you're looking for and GOOD LUCK! xxxx

Sounds like your confidence is at 'rock bottom' too, Look love, men, through all of their good points and all of their bad, whatever starsign they are, will take an opportunity if its put in front of them, and use it to the best of their ability. They hate other men taking an interest. More so the Scorpio I'd say, they're very possessive when it comes to 'other men taking an interest. Gemini - Friendly, flirtatious, outgoing, sociable. Go with what you feels best for you. Sure you know deep down the one you 'click' with the most Be aware though, that you should put yourself first for once. I'm in a mess with a Scorpio man, because I've seemed avaliable due to me loving him like no one else, he's lost interest. Keep them both at arms length. Have some YOU time. Sounds like you need it chick. Hope you find what you're looking for and GOOD LUCK! xxxx

Sorry I haven't been around... decided to try and talk about things that were happening to him rather than on here...It's been swings and roundabouts with us. More tears, more so on my part. He told me he loved me still, I believed him, because thats what my heart wanted to believe. Told me that his parents had given him an 'ultimatum'. If he moved back in, then they'd disown him, want nothing to do with him anymore. Thats a great foundation to build on, and something that no parent should put on their kid. He's not some young lad that doesn't know his own mind, they should give him a break and let him make his own choices. He said that he'd probably said too much to them, and told them that we were just on a break, so now, he's had this thing with his parents to think about. I met him in town last week. Crazy I know, but when you love someone so much, you've gotta try your best, be your most vulnerable, show how your hurting, and try to 'work it out'. So, he said that he needed some time, and all I could do was respect that, said that he wanted to come back, but he had some plans made, and would I mind if he came back in a few days. He text me a few times, told me he was missing me, I told the kids and the rest of the people close to me what was happening, and all they want, is what's best for me. People that knew us just want us to be happy again, sick of seeing me in such a state with myself, never cried so much in my whole life. It was our anniversary on Sunday, his dad didn't come for his things. He said that he'd come down and spend some time with me. So he got here at tea time, brought me a card, the weather was atrocious, heavy rain, maybe depicting my mood, as it has done for the past few weeks. When he got here, I asked if his parents knew where he was, he said no, so that really did make me think. Even worse was when he told me that he wasn't staying and that he had to go 'home'. That was it, hurt again. I should have been happy, on such a significant day, the day we met a year before, and I couldn't have been further from that mindset. Tried to talk, had my youngest daughter around due to the bad weather, know she was only protecting me by being around. Had to go upstairs to talk, just for some privacy. He told me that he wanted to come back and that he loved me, said he needed a few more days, was scared to come back incase the same thing happened again. Something weird happened while he was out last week, he went into a charity shop (we used to go in all of the thrift shops when we were together) He went into one, and found a CD of a band that I used to know and that I'd worked with years ago. He text me and told me he'd picked up a CD with my name on it as guest vocals. It's like fate keeps pulling us back together, yet the circumstances of everything are keeping us apart. Told him that I couldn't wait forever, I have my life too, can't keep putting it on 'hold' while he sorts out what he wants, I deserve better. He took somthing that he'd sold on EBay, needed to send it off, so that had me thinking too, if he'd just come up for that. Love makes you think like that I guess. So he went, couldn't walk him to the bus stop, used to hate doing it when we first met and he had to go back to his flat, and felt so let down and defeated by him not making the effort, for not standing up for what he wants and saying to his family 'I love Michelle, we want to be together, sorry if its not what you want but you've gotta let me live my life', even though he shouldn't have to make that choice, they should be ashamed of making him have to make that choice, though I know, that as parents, they've seen him hurt, and at the end of the day, they're just looking out for him, its a natural thing that parents do. I cried. Everyone was texting me to ask me how it was going, if we were out having a meal. My daughter rang me when I told her he'd gone, and she kicked off. 'You're joking me!? I thought he loved you?? Why did he have to go back to his mum and dads, he's not some schoolkid??' Then she started to question if he loved me or not. Said that if he loved me, he'd have been with me nomatter what his mum and dad thought. Said that he was just messing me about, then she said that she'd never be the same with him again after what he'd put me through. My kids have seen me in pain for too long now. I went to bed that night, crying into my pillow again, thinking that he didn't love me like he said that he did, felt like he'd chosen his parents feelings over mine, when I shouldn't have even thought that...so yeah, that cut deep. I got up at 5 the next morning, half cut, determined to get some outcome with all of this. So I let my Aquarian logic take over, my head did the talking. Told him that we should have never have seen each other while things were so raw, and that we'd have to grit our teeth, and get on with getting over each other. Tried to come up with an amicable solution to some bills that he's paying for me at the moment. Then I decided to start planning for my future, rang college, enrolling in September for an English and Media course, help me get back into journalism, something that I should have pursued when I worked for my local paper. Went to my daughters and her boyfriends. Found out that she's mailed this ex of his and told her a few things.. kids see and feel I guess. Glad that my son hasn't been around with any of this, he comes back from his holiday on Friday, no doubt my daughter will tell him everything. I sacrificed my family when I met him. Went through so much as a parent, went down the preverbial guilt trip road, but always thought that love saves the day and that they'd come around eventually, which they did. Even my mum saw how sad I was without him, stating to my surprise last week 'Look Shelley, if you're both miserable without each other, tell him to come back' This was coming from my mum who disowned me when we first met, who's stubborn head kept her out of the picture for most of the time. He mailed me yesterday, said that he didn't think he could dishonour his parents wishes, as they'd brought him up right over the years, and he had to respect that. My head tells me to 'move on', my head tells me that he's 'played' on my feelings through all of this. Even friends that are closest to me now say that he doesn't love me and that that's all that he's doing. My heart says something else. So I let my heart speak again yesterday, never wanted to have a cold heart anyway. The logic of my Aquarian nature says one thing, yet I was born on the Aqua/Pisces cusp, so I feel more than most Aquarians, I'm the most sensitive being that I've ever known. I'm staying strong whatever happens. I don't know what's going to happen, so I guess that brings me some hope with all of this. Thanks for the message seasidelass, appreciate it love, nice to know that even though I've got people around that love me, there's others out there that feel it too. Best go for now. Love n light xxxxxxxx

Thank your lucky stars chick that you've had the instinct and common sense to see what's been in front of you. I'm paying the price for the Libra, still. Everytime that my daughter tells me her dad hasn't bothered with her, that hurts me too. Libran men are supposed to be balanced, the only thing that they're good at balancing, is getting themselves out of situations, that they create through their sheer determination to 'get what they want' in sex and the rest of it. I hope you find the love that you deserve soon xxxxx

I was married to a Libran for 8 years and didn't I know it! Supposed to be my most compatible sign, turned out the worst :s Couldn't see the truth if it hit him in the face. Used to 'swear' on his sons life that he was telling the truth, then I found out he'd been lying. Had a perverted mind too. Wanted to be a 'dad' but only when it suited him. Used to go around the house finding phone numbers everywhere on little bits of paper, womens numbers that he'd met when I used to trust him and let him go out with my brother. Saved up to buy him a wedding ring when we got married, took me months to get it him. Then I found out he'd been taking it off when he was out drinking. According to my brother, he was chatting a woman up one night (while he was with my brother... the bozo had NO morals AT all) and he told her that she was welcome back to his, only his sister was staying over with his nephew (sister being me and nephew being his son!!) Go with the Cap, least they're honest!

I've been busy with stuff, had so much to do and so much to think about. Yesterday was the worst day so far for me I think.. didn't help me having to see him again and then having to ring everyone up. Just ended up having to repeat myself the same opening lines on the phone and that didn't help. Really drained me yesterday but least I got a decent nights sleep, no waking up either so my body and soul must have needed it. I woke up more + today. Still had a lot to sort out though. Mailed him. Its so easy when you've split from someone to 'clam up' and lose the way to communicate like you used to. I don't want that. Best to stay honest and show how your feeling. At the end of the day, we're all human, and we all need to show that we're not robots and still have feelings, whatever they are. Through the good times, and bad, there's hope. I dunno how this is going to pan out I really don't. All new to me. Usually walk away and never look back, spose that's to get over the loss as quick as possible and to forget the hurt. I dunno this time though. I think we did meet for a reason, maybe we should have been friends first instead of jumping right in at the deep end head first. I just took my chance on love I guess. Told my son that he couldn't deny me of having a shot of happiness with someone and that I deserved that, this time, he was understanding about it. I've been at the bottom of a bottomless pit for nearly a week now. Told him today that you don't really know what you've lost till its gone. Guess time will be the factor in all of this as it always is. He said that he wants to be my 'best friend'. My best friend passed a few years ago, she was a Scorpio too... her birthday was the day after his. It's just the thought of if my emotions can stand upto that.. I don't know.. One minute I'm down, then I'm looking forwards... trying to stay upbeat..

seasidelas: Yeah I know. I had those thoughts yesterday about having some time out for myself. Easier said than done at the minute though.. he still has some things here and his dad's got to come through again so will be seeing him again at the weekend... probably hurt like hell again when I do....would have been our 1st anniversary to when we met that day too.... how ironic and sad is that? I've just thought of that.... Sunday BLOODY Sunday :-((( The day we should have been going away and he's taking the last of his things .I'm trying to keep on top of things, sure time will be the best way now. Thanks for the message gal xxxxxx

Sherri263: Yeah, Libran's. Supposed to be my most compatible sign, but he proved to be the worst in the long run. Womaniser, liar, never there as a dad for his kids, all he thought about was himself. Glad I got out of that one. He's in touch with his son more than his daughter and that's not fair, no wonder she's resenting him right now. The high energy has been around for a while, I've been getting signs and messages for some time. I had a few minutes in deep contemplation today. Asked the spirits to channel energy in a positive way instead of me getting so many negatives. Hope they'll come and see me with some insights soon. Love n light xxxxx