I've had my heart smashed in some many pieces, so many times, by the same man. I know how very stupid I am. For so long, I felt and believed I wasn't good enough for him. That I was doing something or everything wrong (my hair,my makeup,my clothing,nails etc). One day after praying so much, god told me, "He's not good enough for you." I believe that, I realize that. All the things he put me through. All the things he stole from me. All the games he played and lies he told and continue to tell. All the dreams he killed. Why want he leave me alone? Because of him I feel, i never want to see another man as long as i live. When I have to talk to a man,I never look at them,never stop my motion. Never take them serious and bite their heads off. I make alot of my co-workers anry. They ask me something work related, and i tell them to ask someone else. Never looking at them or stop walking. Half of me says, forget the past, forget yesterday and him and bloom. The other half of me says, their not worth the heartache. The center of me says. (WHEN YOU TRY TO HOLD TOGETHER SOMETHING,GOD HIMSELF DOESN'T WANT,IT WILL NEVER BE. NOONE CONTROLS GOD. ALSO, WHEN SOMEONE SHOWS YOU, WHO THEY ARE, BELIEVE THEM. DON'T LIVE FOR YESTERDAY OR TOMORROW. LIVE FOR TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME. I FEEL SO LONELY,LOST,CONFUSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Giving up on love!

I feel this is chapter 3 of my life and I want it all to myself. I don't feel there are any real,sincere men out there. They all just want to play games and are incapable of anything real. I feel like there's no reason to even waste time looking or talking to them. I don't understand why it's so hard to simply meet someone who can be themselves. I'm simply looking for someone I have (FLRPTT) with. Just friendship,if it goes further and grow, good. Will I stick around to find out. I don't believe I'll ever take anyone serious again. FLRPTT means FRIENDSHIP,LOVE,RESPECT,TRUST,TRUTH.

Try for over ten years. I loved this man with all of my heart,body,soul! He was so very different,from anyone I ever had been involved with. I thought god created him just for me.

I thought if you looked up the word man, you would see his picture. I thought he was my soulmate. Whenever, we're around one another, it's just us. Nothing or noone else mattered. Even at work, at a crowded store or mall, any where. When he looked at me, i would loose my train of thought. We're over now. I don't no what to do!

First, you don"t change for anyone. That's how you were when he meet you. If, you start to change little parts of you, you'll change all of you. First, it's this, and he sees he's gotton his way. Next, it'll be something else. One thing after another.

If, he's so concerned about you being friends with your ex, he needs to find another way to handle it, other than being jealous. Maybe, you all can do things together. Try to include him in conversations and outings you have with this friend.