am sagittarius, moon sign is taurus, rising sun is taurus i ve always felt as if god has something special for me but lately i am affraid unsure, need help

Hi i been using site for long time and love it i am usually very positive but lately my life is crazy i belive jey i see the world around me and just dont understand if am fooling myself, i feel a peace, and love in my heart jet my life is very hard i feel as if i am been put thru a test and my soul crys out for help but my sprit tells me to relax am i crazy

Thank you, my light is on and like you i too was in darkness, i needed to be remainded of that that is whitin me thank you